I hate playing these damn it to hell games
my car is fixed! hooray!!!!
the hose they put on came loose, so they repaired that and i was in and out in 30 minutes. and i didn’t have to pay anything.
that was nice.
so i’m home now. i have lots of stuff to do today… but it will all get taken care of in time.
I’m going to go ahead and make a couple meals I think.
I’m anticipating when I’ll call Jeff (yeah, that’s his name. mr lover = Jeff).
Damn… I feel like I shouldn’t. But what if he is waiting for me to call. What if he thinks I don’t like him.
I HATE THESE GAMES.
I don’t play games. I despise them. I never know the right rules.
I want to scream.
I want to just… explode. I want to just tell him straight out what is going on with me…. but honestly, i think that’s what scares guys away. I’m too straight forward and honest. I don’t like hiding how I feel.
It seems that most males I am with don’t respond well to that part of my personality in the beginning. it’s a good thing later on if you’re in a relationship… but when you’re just getting to know someone, it’s just not very wise. I’ve learned this, but I still hate having to hold back a major part of who I am just so that a guy can not feel threatened.
Common sense would say, well if he feels threatened by that, then he’s not the one. But I just can’t seem to fully accept that.
whatever.
i’m thinking WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too much.
and I’m really quite hungry….
I guess I should go find something to eat.
What are you eating? Tell me. Jeff. J names are bad. TOo many of them. Sometimes I have to think really hard to come up with a boy name that doesn’t start with J. Boys suck.
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maybe I will call you!
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beware the j jeffs. beware j’s generally actually.
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You should call just to say thank you for the other day. As cheesy as it sounds. Or you could call me and make my day a happy place.
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Don’t be scured M!!!!
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don’t be scared, but PLEASE be cautious. this sounds so familiar to the start of jesse…
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There is some truth to what they say about J names… And for the record, I think that in the beginning, you do need to hold back a bit. It’s an awful game, but it’s also part of the fun. When I talk to Matt about the beginning of our relationship I always end up saying “Why didn’t you tell me that?!” But it makes it more fun to learn about each other’s personality bit by bit, not all up front.
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I know! I can’t stand that. I’m talking to a guy right now and I’m always thinking did I say to much? Did I not say enough? Does he think I’m weird b/c of what I DID say? ARGH! I hate it too!!!! =)
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Jeff? That’s such an ordinary name for the Sex God. I thought he’d be named Lascivious or Mephistopheles or something cool like that.
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J’s are evil! =o) But damn… *fans self* I can understand the dilemma. *huggles* ~
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thats why I like email… you can just leave it out there and give them time to write back. I’m a chicken. 🙁
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wow thats all i can say about the stories- holy shit- wow
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bleugh… who need rules?
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I love you, does that matter?
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We are so much alike it isnt even funny. I am so outgoing and bouncy dand straight forward because THAT IS ME. and it scares the crap out of guys. Especially since i like those quiet shy preppy ones…
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I am always too straightforward like this too hon. I know how you feel! *hugs*
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