I guess I’m glowing…

I have been told several times by different people that i look happy this morning.

Exact words:

"You look exceptionally good today!"

"Wow, you look nice! Glowy and happy!"

"Oh my, what did you do last night to put that smile on your face" *eyebrow wiggle*

"Awww, it’s good to see you smiling"

and finally

"You look happy today"

Yep… after hearing that so many times I guess it must be true.

So I suppose I’ll smile a little bit more.

and give a *happy sigh*

So I got to see "him" last night, so of course this is why my mood has lifted.

When I told him he was like "well i look at it negatively. It means if you’re in a bad mood I’m the reason for that too"

Blah, but not so! He actually has more influence on my good mood than my bad mood.

yeah, he can upset me and make me all a mess, but there is also the stresses of everything else in my word (money, debt, my weight, my living situation, work, gas prices, needing to get a divorce, my kids acting a fool, video games that won’t work ha ha) that can bring me down.

but very few things bring me up.

and he just happens to be one of them that obviously has a very visible impact.

So I picked him up and we got the kids and went to IHOP. Jacob was in rare hyper form and i had to take away his soda. *sigh* I could tell he was tired. His eyes were barely open, poor thing. He drank a bunch of coffee and I think that helped.

After that we went home and the kids went outside (which is a miracle for Jacob who likes to stay inside and torment me). So him and I were able to snuggle up. It’s so nice doing that and being able to bury my face in his neck and just breathe him in.

something that happened made me really happy and I bet he didn’t even know. So we were laying there and I was just feeling so content because I missed him a lot. I know it’s lame, but I did. So, with all of my weirdness going on in my head trying to protect my dumb feelings I haven’t really felt comfortable in expressing that sentiment. But I went ahead and told him that I missed him.

and he said he missed me too!

awwwww!!! I was like totally melty after that. It made me feel less like a big dumb girl and more accepted.

i adore him so.

It was just… so nice and… soooo nice.

so of course, with kids out of the way… we were able to have some grown up fun.

 

 

 

 

*sex talk approaching. Skip bolded text if you desire*

 

 

So yeah, It was nice. He’s just… rawr sexy. He was spanking me really hard before anything really began and it was liek RAWR with the pain. I love that stuff. ha ha. He was making me practically bust out of my skin though with the foreplay. Very nice.

That was so needed for me.

mmmm.

 

 

*sex talk over. See that wasn’t so bad!*

 

 

So anyway, after that it was a pretty calm night.

After the children were down to sleep (Jacob did really good and didn’t get out of bed to torment me once! That’s huge since he usually has to come and pester me at least 20 times before he sleeps and is up until 11. so good on him!) we settled in around 11. He couldn’t get comfortable. Poor thing.

but eventually we found a comfortable way to lay and sleep took me pretty quick. I was just relaxed. I just love having him there with me. I know it’s silly, but it’s true. Even if I couldn’t sleep for shit, it would be ok cuz he was there.

I slept pretty well. I woke up a few times. I had a strange dream with him in it (but no sex dreams! boo!) and now.. here i am…

 

glowing.

 

ha ha. that’s pretty cool though.

I am so happy I got to see him.

so I’m being redundant and weird. But i just feel a lot better today.