I feel fiiiiiine

Gooooooooood… nevermind.

Hi.

I feel… fine.

It’s weird to feel fine. But I do.

fine fine fine.

I will tell a cute, but telling, story.

So last night I went to pick up the boys and when we got in the car Jacob tells me "Don’t start the car! I have to give you something first!"

So I wait while he fiddles around and he finally pulls out this Christmas card. It’s cute and has 4 little people on the front. I ask him who they are.

"That my family!"

I say "Ok…"

and he points out Jonathon, himself, and me. I ask him who the fourth person is.

"Oh, that’s Baboo *but he used his real name. ha*"

I said "Awww, that’s sweet."

But as you can see, Baboo is in it DEEP with my kids. Yet another reason why I can’t just drop him and run. ha ha. It’s bigger than that issue we had. And no matter how much he might have wanted to prevent this from happening or how removed he wants to believe he is, my kids consider him part of the family now. The fact that my son would include him in that picture is very telling.

We were all also smiling and for some reason him and his brother were green (blending in with the paper) and Baboo and I were colored, standing out. I KNOW that means something, but I don’t really know exactly.)

but yeah, I’ll take a pic of it sometime to post.

Anyway, I called and told Baboo about it and he laughed… but then he had to go cuz he was hanging out with his friend. No big. I did very good in not freaking out at not getting a chance to talk to him more. I think I’m getting better at allowing the space and distance and not feeling insecure and weird. I know that this is sort of what it means to mature, but ya know… it takes effort by me to be ok. But the effort is less and less. I felt fine last night and just did my own thing and it was cool.

 I made up an e-mail with the links to a bunch of the stuff I use to make my sims sexay (if you want it, just give me your email and I’ll send it to you!) and then I played for awhile. My teen girl and the mom both had their babies. I took some pics, but they weren’t very good. I’ll probably do a new family and start telling their little story and posting it here.

Then I watched some dvr stuff and fell asleep.

Around midnight the evil roommate came home and started slamming stuff around cooking and such…

and then was up AGAIN at around 4:30 doing the same thing.

I swear I really dislike that man.

I so hope I can be OUT of there in 3 months. PLEASE.

I’ll go crazy if I can’t move. I’ll just go crazy!

It only cost $25.00 to fill up my gas tank to almost full last night. I thought that was SO COOL. It hasn’t been that low in YEARS. ha ha.

I have some pics to post and stuff and I HOPE that i can get around to posting some Trigger today. I must finish before the end of the year! that’s my goal!

Anyhow, I hope everyone is having a great Tuesday…