Chaosbride

January 28, 2010

hammer me

Well I just got in from walking my sons to school. I’m out of cat food and other random crap so I’m going to have to go to the store.

But I also want McDonalds dollar menu breakfast!!!

(diet? did you say diet?! lol… not like I’m gonna order one of everything and eat it all while sipping on a cup of sugary fat and sopping it all up with a giant donut… blah!)

I’m waiting for baboo to be finished with his project because he wants to come so we can go to the bank as well.

ugh, stupid bank. I’m just gonna go to the bank tomorrow because I have to take him to a class and I’ll need something to do.

wahoo!

or whatever.

The only sucky thing about not being at work today is not being able to be around if the list of those getting laid off drops. I simply do NOT want that to be what waits for me when I go into work on Monday.

*sigh*

I was stressed to my limits last night when I went to pick up baboo. So he took me out to dinner at BJ"s where I had flat bread pizza (so good! Margherita style!) and potstickers and a margarita with a giant additional shot of tequila… which promptly WASTED ME and I couldn’t drive.

ha ha on me.

I was totally hammered and I didn’t care.

Baboo was right there for me and was really sweet telling me everything would be ok and wiping away stupid tears that just kept coming. He said he would help me if I lost money or lost my job completely and I know that’s true… he is definitely here for me. He loves me and this family and he is not going to leave me hanging.

I feel so helpless. I’ve taken care of my family on my own with NO HELP for over 6 years. This is the adult life that I have known. Kicking and scratching and working my ass off to do things to make sure my family is taken care of. I’ve never asked for help or anything.

And it’s just weird to give up that pride and allow someone to be there for me.

And a part of me is sad that it’s come to this. I like being seen as an independent woman who has stood on my own and rocked it. I don’t want it to seem like I need Baboo because he can help take care of us. I want him to feel secure in that I love him for more than that.

But the other part of me is so thankful he is here and he is willing to make that huge step.

I love him so much.

Anyway, gotta go get ready to do the shopping so my poor cats don’t starve.

When they are hungry they all follow you around with giant hungry cat eyes.

it’s sorta scary because there are FOUR OF THE LITTLE SUCKERS.

We need to get rid of these last two girl kittens. Baboo is a sucker and he has fallen in love with one of them.

I’M NOT HAVING IT!!!!

lol.

oh well…

I hope everyone has a great Friday. I think you all SO MUCH for your encouragement and support and for lending me your strength. It’s priceless and I love you people!

MUAH!!!!

(btw, where the fuckety fuck fuck is my period? It needs to get a move on, I’m getting annoyed! I spotted yesterday, but then nothin. grrrr!)

Without Wings

January 29, 2010

Don’t you hate that? I was a week late-then I had sex, and the next day I bled. My advice is make Baboo pound you REALLY hard and that’ll start it

*first note wiggle*

Beautiful406

I’m waiting on mine too. Tick tock tick tock. Ugh! I’m so glad you have Baboo. I’m hoping and praying for the best for you.

BlueSun

kitttties!!! ya know mcdonalds isnt the worst thing every for you but if i get the breakfast i just get a sandwhich and not a meal i miss the hash brown but the sandwhich is still good then i dont feel guilty!

MMMMMMMMMM. I want McDonalds so badly. WW and I were just talking about it. I am so glad he’s there for you, I am so impressed with him! Stop by work? And find out?

I had Mcd’s this morning. Mmm…it was ok. Super salty. I am so happy that you have Baboo there for you. Maybe it time to relax just a little and see what happens.

hang in there. huggs

Bees of my knees

*giggle at Without Wings’ note* We’re gunning for ya. Xoxo

i’ve got my awesome period, you want it? i really don’t. *huggs*

K.Frances

Now you’ve gone and made me hungry and nervous for you at the same time. It feels weird, dammit! I don’t blame you for being conflicted. Staying home and not working has been weird for me, but he’s been awesome just from what you’ve told us, so you’re good, right? 🙂

KPinK

Sometimes you got to take the good with the bad… the relief of having help should be relished!!! and then when you got to pull your boot straps on, you do that… you know you can!!

/huggles! have a great weekend CHris

Age / Sex / Location

McDonald’s…nom nom nom

M.C.

Yeah…it can happen that way with periods sometimes! As weird and frustrating and confusing as it is! I hate it too whenever it happens to me! Thankfully, not often! And, glad Baboo is there for you! You’re gonna need it right now, and also during the times that you need someone! Hang in there hun! And, you’re welcome for your encouragement!

k_luv

Oh man, that’s so scary about work. I hope you’re not stressing too much – it will all work out somehow. Your man is awesome for being so supportive.

Taken_Love

I don’t really know if YOU are religious or not but, I’ll keep you in my prayers about the whole job thing.

babyontha1

I swear the same thing happened to me last month. It felt like it was coming on strong, got some spots, and then nothing. And still nothing. I am sure I got another dilema on my hands. I think your job will be ok. Your boss seems to be looking out for you. I’d give her a call today though just to show your concern for keeping the job.

Pancholuvsyou

lol… not like I’m gonna order one of everything and eat it all while sipping on a cup of sugary fat and sopping it all up with a giant donut… You’re not? Hmph. You’re missing out!

(btw, where the fuckety fuck fuck is my period? I’m holding it hostage over here. Just do as I tell you and you can have it back.

Cargo Container

I’ve never been much for the fast food breakfast, myself.

atlas nugged

BITCH I BET UR EATING FRE3NCH FRIES AGAIN U DSIGUST ME P.S.: YOUR MOM SPOTTED YESTERDAY (I BASICALLY SKIPPED THE ENTIRE MIDDLE OF THIS ENTRY)

amanduh

You def have a winner in baboo! 🙂 aww. I love it. Hehe. Tequila—yuck!!!! Lol. And I’m supposed to be period-y in two more days and NOT searchinjg for it. Lol. Well I’m always pleased when it arrives but that’s just because I don’t want no babies. Haha!!!

HersheyKiss

January 31, 2010

thinking of you sweetie and so glad Baboo is being good to you. You deserve it!!!

-Blue

February 1, 2010