get a grip

I’m trying to calm down and come to terms with things.

Thank you, everyone, for your supportive notes and love. I need it.

I do feel like a drama queen though. But I can’t help it. Everything feels so HUGE right now.

Baboo and I got into it last night. I wouldn’t say that we argued, but we had a "heated" discussion. I fussed quite a bit.

In his defense, he hasn’t been a total lump. He’s helped me as much as he can and he does things when I ask. As far as driving the boys to my aunts, I’m sure if we had talked more extensively he would have conceded… however, my cousin is going to pick them up Tuesday afternoon and they will be able to stay with my aunt for as long as we need. I just don’t know how they’ll get home, but hopefully she’ll bring them back too. I’ll give her gas money and such. I’m sure they’ll all want to see the baby anyway.

Anyhow, it’s down to the wire and I’m praying that my husband at least gets rid of all the boxes in the living room. My mother in law is only going to come on Wednesday and our main goal is to get the house cleaned up and ready for baby. I’m hoping to get my kids to help me with a little bit of my bedroom and at least fold up the laundry tomorrow… so… that’s my plan.

The house won’t be a total tragedy.

Anyway, we talked last night and we had it out. I don’t know. There are a lot of things I’m not writing about. Regardless, we both cried and I hope things are better now.

So… induction. Yeah….

I am so scared. SCARED!!! I know I have had children before but I’m retarded and I’m filling my head with stories of failed inductions that end in c sections and I’m scared to death of a c section. LOL… don’t dare tell me how it’s all routine and they do it all the time. I don’t want one!

I’m a mess.

a total mess.

sigh.

Well, let the baby countdown begin!

approx: 3 days, 9 hours, 1 minute and 51 seconds until I am induced. Eek!

 

 

 

Oh yeah, I have a ticker. Look at that!

 

 

 

 

 

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July 15, 2012

Hey there. I had an induction using lamineria(sp). Not a to me. Not a good procedure. They should never had done that.Should have used the standard pitocin like everyone else got but I had a terrible experience all together. anyway sry for this rant. um good luck. dont let them put lameneria in you to induce.

July 15, 2012

A c-section would scare me too!! I think everything will come together OK. I cannot wait to see pics of baby!! *Squeezes* I can’t believe it’s almost time already!

July 15, 2012

aw, it’ll be okay! you will do awesome!

*hug*

Try to keep rested, not long to go now til little one is here even if it is earlier than you had hoped or expected xx

July 15, 2012

I was the same way about my induction and a c-section. I didn’t want a c-section. *hugs* I know there are plenty of horror stories, but I think there are actually more stories where those things don’t happen, but you just don’t hear about them. People tell the bad more than the good. Try not to think about those things as hard as that may be. Remember, what ‘s important is a healthy baby anda healthy momma. <3 I think there are things about having a baby that are stressful every time and it doesn’t matter how many times you’ve done it. Every pregnancy, labor, and delivery is different just like every child is different. Induction wasn’t near as terrible as I thought it would be. Infact, after being induced, Colin decided we’d just take a nap for a few hours before he made his appearance. It will all be okay. <3

July 15, 2012

you are gonna be an excellent momma unit, heck you already are! Chris

July 15, 2012

*hugs* <3

July 15, 2012

Gives you a big hug…. I would be scared out of my wits, just like you are. I wish I could take your being scared away.

July 15, 2012

Everything will all fall into place. As for C-section, it’s major surgery! You have every reason to be afraid of having one. Make sure, if you do end up needing one, that there is a valid reason for it. If not, fight it. Most c-sections are unneccessary. The doctor is just being lazy.

I feel like the doctors wouldn’t do this unless it was for the best for you and baby. I’m going to believe that you are going to be OK. You are sure going to be in my thoughts until you come back and write about your little man. I’m so sorry things have been a bit rough with you and Baboo. I so hope that your talk helps things. I hope that he can meet you in the middle.

July 15, 2012

You can do this mama. I know that with an induction, there is auto-monitoring, but if possible, once you have been induced, (I am assuming they will give you pitocin, then help cervix along, maybe progesterone gel), keep moving, keep squatting. Keep coaxing baby. You can do it. You can you can you can.

July 15, 2012

Hugs.

July 15, 2012

I was induced three out of five pregnancies. It wasn’t bad, honest!

July 15, 2012

my first child was a csection and my second was induced. each had pluses and drawbacks.

July 15, 2012

HUGS. I’ve never been induced, so I don’t know what it’s like. I will say this – at my age, the C-Section sucked. But I am not so sure it wasn’t better than full-blown labor at my age. I just know from experience I recovered so much quicker from labor. Try not to think of the stories out there…just concentrate on you and your Nugget. 🙂

July 15, 2012

Rawr, you’re gonna do fine. Like a bawss.

July 15, 2012

You’ve had two vaj bebes already… you probably won’t need a C-section. I’ll pray you don’t! Soon you’ll have a new tiny baby!

July 16, 2012

oh, i just want to give you a hug and then hold you hand and tell you it’ll be okay. they’re only suggesting what they think is best for you and nugget because everyone wants both of you to be ok. *hugs*

July 19, 2012

you are going to kick ass!!!