dumb girl emotions

i have stuff i want to write about, but i feel overwhelmed.

i hate keeping feelings inside.

and i hate crying so that it feels like I can release some of the pressure.

I"m not getting my kids for another hour. I need to be alone.

I want to curl up into a ball and not think.

or not be.

or not…

anyway.

i guess things are as ok as they are going to get.

i’m just sick of crying over nothing.