Dogpile on the Monday!

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I don’t even mind calling you friends because so many of you are to me!

Thank you for all the awesome notes and the support! I loves you guys! *big gigantic smooshy smoosh huggzz*

Anyway, it’s Monday and despite it all, it’s proving to be a suck of a day. I forgot a bunch of stuff, I’m tired, I had weird dreams about taking vacations and missing my flights and weird crap.

Baboo came over yesterday.

I asked him if he was happy with me and he said he was.

I’m not sure what to do with him. Something in his face told me that I had nothing to worry about and everything was ok, but it’s so hard sometimes. We didn’t have a super serious talk, but it was almost like we didn’t need to.
i dunno.

I gave him lots of space on Saturday night and maybe that’s what he needed. Hell if I can really decipher the mind of a man, and it goes the other way too. Us women are insanely complicated sometimes.

I just hope whatever it is that is happening is going to make us stronger.

I don’t want him to be with me because he is scared of breaking up with me. I want him to be with me because he WANTS to.

I even said that it sometimes seems like he does things to push me over the edge so I’ll dump him and he’ll be free.

He just sorta looked at me.

And it was sad because it was almost like he was agreeing with his silence.

But then later it was different and I just don’t KNOW.

And then he goes out and rough houses with my boys and they bond so fiercely and I just don’t KNOW.

ugh.

Whatever.

It felt like a family yesterday. Me cooking, them laughing and playing.

I don’t KNOW.

My dumb period should be here by Wednesday and I’m a hormonal weeping mess lately. It’s stupid. I hate it!!!! I was watching Super Nanny on Friday night and bawling my eyes out over the father taking his son golfing.

I’m such a doof.

Anyhow, Monday is upon us… and so is May!

I need to change my calendars.

Jacob’s 6th birthday is coming. He’ll probably have a shared birthday with his cousin again.

Jonathon wants to go to the zoo for his birthday. I need to check out prices. Maybe I can get a group rate or something…

I just yawned the most GIGANTIC YAWN OF THE DAY!!!!

It makes me want to go home and back to sleep.

3 Good Things:

*I get paid on Wednesday

*My freezer is full

*I had a nice night with my family and Baboo yesterday

1 Bad Thing:

*I really hate having so many gray hairs. I know it’s sorta… a non issue. i will be coloring it (baboo was all "wow, your hair is all brown…" ha ha, that’s my natural color. All the black and stuff washed out already!) and probably for the rest of my life till I get sick of the process.

I also really BADLY need a trim. I might do that next weekend too. We’ll see. I have to pay for it though, I’ll look like a lopsided fool if I try to do it myself.

I forgot my lunch today.

You KNOW I want a chicken bowl.

but I think I’ll get a subway sandwich.

I’m not sure…