damn it.
Just finished some training. I’m tired. I’m done for the day.
I want a cheeseburger.
but my cravings are stupid and will be pushed aside for the lovely deli turkey and cheddar cheese I’m going to roll together and eat. In about an hour. I can last that long… right?
SHUT UP STOMACH!
I hat that I’m muffin-topping out of my fat pants. I just bought these f ucking pants.
god.
muffins suck.
but they are so delicious.
I’m going to get better. I’m going to buy this vacuum and I’m going to make my living room pretty again (My children destroy it on a daily basis!) and then I’m going to exercise more. I am! And Baboo can just play Rage until his face falls off and WHATEVER.
I like not being upset with him. But I can’t think about it too long. lol.
ugh,
so after all this bullshittery with my neighbor I got the "get me the hell outta here!" bug and we were looking at houses and stuff.
but it ruins all of our plans. Including our getting pregnant and having babies plans.
the goal is for me to be able to quit my job, start an in home before and after school care center for older kids (between grades 1 – 5), have babies and live happily ever after.
but now it’s like, lets just move somewhere and do something fast.
and whatever.
maybe it’s all for nothing because I can’t get pregnant anymore anyway.
oh depression.
i can’t even eat a damn candy bar to cheer up.
damn it.
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*hugs* Love ya sweet girl. 🙂 <3
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If only we could eat our muffin tops and have them taste like yummy muffin tops!!!
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love you mammas!!!
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** hugs** i wished you lived by me.. i would gladly pay you to watch my child before and after school 🙂
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That kind of pisses me off and annoys me when people tell me to cheer up. It’s like don’t tell me how to feel and this feeling and mood’ll change when it feels like it. And saying that won’t make it happen any faster. I also hate it when they tell me to cheer up and they’re just as prone to being in a mood as me. But it seems to take longer with clearing up or something. I hope you feel better.
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it might be nice to be all settled in a nice house away from crazy neighbour before the new baby arrives ^_^ and i saw someone who played that zombie island game whilst running on a treadmill to make it more realistic… hmm. not sure about that (and i hate treadmills) but it was a neat way to make yourself exercise and game simultaneously!
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*hugs*
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aw. 🙁
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RYN: Hugs back to you.
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I hate wanting to eat all the time, but food is so gooooood!!! We’ve got to find the motivation to start losing weight! I have no idea what will do it for me (not entirely true, a woman always helps me, haha). Lets find something for you!
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Can we high five your neighbor in the face with bowling balls? I’m all for that.
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Have you tried talking to your doctor about the pregnancy issues? Yeah your neighbour is not a nice person. I wish you didn’t have to deal with her.
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If it makes you feel any better I popped a button on my fat work pants last night. *hugs*
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RYN: Thank you. That note was very nice. I think I probably would have stayed longer, not wanting to but not having the will power to leave, if it hadn’t been for the fact that I needed to be in VA to take care of my oldest. I’m sorry you found yourself in that situation too. 🙁 And yes, I wanted to be on the pre-readers list. 🙂
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ah, the muffin-tops. It is wonderful that scrbs are drawstring or elastic and actually hide some fattage. ryn: HA! HA! HA! Toys!
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I love muffins too! 🙂 we have double choc ones at work and im always eyeing them off 😀 ryn: weed scares me too!! I was terrified on that stuff but i just had to listen to my mate telling me everything was ok – not a nice feeling for me tho!
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RYN: Had an awesome time, thanks 🙂 x
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