Care for some crack… ers….???

I have these stupid Wal Mart brand round crackers. I eat one and I end up eating 20. I don’t know why. I think they have crack in them.

CRACKERS WITH CRACK!

lol.

*blink*

Anwyay, I’m feeling really distracted and I’ve been unable to make myself do much of anything today.

Some things:

So the chick I was gonna give the dog to (so she could give it to her mother) was my brothers LOOOOONG TIME like from highschool friend that he was living with. I guess some shit went down with their kids and he is moving out. so now it’s all awkward and stupid and she’s saying that her mother might not want the dog.

well shit a brick.

I don’t know what to do. I either keep him or I give him to a coworker at this point.

Not sure I am keeping him. He’s a sweet little mop of a dog, but yeah.

I dunno.

blah.

*eats another 4 cracked up crackers*

I’m retarded.

I didn’t eat dinner last night.

and here I am gorging on crack…ers…

anyway… so now there is drama with the dog.

pretty sure i’ll just stay home on saturday.

I am hoping we have some pocket change so we can go to the movies! I think my kids can go see that cloudy with a chance of meatballs movie with my brother (or something else non terrorizing for kids) and Baboo and I can go see Zombieland.

I simply MUST see it.

In the theater.

i don’t want to wait for it to get netflixed!

I will probably buy it on dvd if it’s good enough.

whatever.

stupid zombie obsession.

So I want to just be out with it about my stupid health.

I know something is probably not quite right with me. It could be as small as my blood pressure being wacky again, or it could be something else.

I don’t feel "right".

I just hate doctors. I hate feeling pressured about it too. It makes my stubborn "YOU CAN’T MAKE ME!!!" bitch side come out and then I won’t go even MORE vehemently than before.

Its stupid. I know this.

People are making sense and I’m plugging my ears screaming "Mary had a little lamb!!!!"

and yeah.

I don’t KNOW.

I don’t want to go now.

I don’t want to wait.

i don’t want to be alive.

I want to just disappear.

oh depression, shut the fuck up.

*stab stab stab*

I need a nap.

so lunch in an hour and 40 minutes. I have this teriyaki bowl thingie we got from costco. I hope it’s not disgusting.

I also have carrots.

and yogurt.

wheeeee.