Broken Vagina

Soooo, Monday.

Hi.

2 days, 10 hours, 26 minutes, 57 seconds until I am induced.

Scared still.

I didn’t really rant too much about how that damn doctor manhandled my vagina. But he did.

and it’s broken.

I’m SO SORE. I can barely walk. I know that this pain is just a smidge of what I’ll be going through in less than 3 days.

I’m calming bit by bit about the whole thing. I have been focusing on positive things and realizing that my body has done this before and will hopefully cooperate. I am praying that my baby is fully developed and won’t have any big problems when he gets here. I am still a bit stressed about my house looking like a wreck of doom, but it will get taken care of. I’m drafting my boys to help me out and get my laundry under control. I swear laundry just goes freaking nuts if you let it go for a second. I am not amused.

I’m starving right now and of course there is nothing that I want in this house. I want sausage and eggs and crispy toast. I can pull off the toast. blah.

I can’t even really go shopping. We just went to celebrate Jons birthday yesterday and I was in immense pain and feeling like crap so I know trying to tackle a shopping trip would be bad. My Dr. doesn’t want me to anyway.

Speaking of, I’m going to email her. I wish she could be there for this induction, but i doubt it. I don’t even know how they communicate, if she even knows what this other guy said.

I pray this man doesn’t deliver my baby. He’s all grizzly and racka and I don’t like him. I want a girl. All the girls were NICE! I felt peaceful around them.

Maybe I’m biased.

Anyway, me and my broken vagina are going to lay down. It hurts to sit up too long.

Stupid vagina.

 

 

 

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July 16, 2012

I’m pretty sure that you can choose to not have a certain doctor when you deliver. I would not want that man either. Hugs.

July 16, 2012

Sweetie, you Americans pay for your healthcare. If you’re paying then you ask for a female!! xxxxxxxxxxx

Aww poor vagina. I hope you’re able to get the doc you want and not some rough and careless douche. : / Just you wait, soon that sweet baby boy will be in your arms and all will be right as rain. 🙂

July 16, 2012

Owie! I wonder if he man handles them while making LOVE. ew! Jerk face!

It’s weird when any guy is down there, unless it’s your husband. I am kind of desensitized to it after my whole abnormal cell debacle a few years back. Really glad you are not as stressed and smart on you to use your boys 🙂

I think emailing YOUR doctor is a smart choice! Heck, The Manhandler is just some random ER guy, right??

July 16, 2012

baby boy will be fine!!! he is full term, he will be just perfect!!

Aww poor Vagina 🙁

July 16, 2012

women do just take their time more. and listen more. i am getting excited to see nugget.

July 16, 2012

RYN: haha believe me, it did occur to me. BUT as long as I have this tid bit & evidence of P’s disgustingness, I have an upper hand. Also, as nasty as she was to me, she deserves the ride she will be taken on. It’s funny b/c he’s already talking to her about growing old together. A week before we split up, he mentioned to me after a spat, “till deat do us part.” He’s so wrong. blech.

July 16, 2012

You have the right to demand another doctor. Patients have done that, for a multitude for a reasons. Don’t hesitate- do it! I love my male doctors. It’s the chick OBs in their office I can’t stand. That last one didn’t even bother to take her wedding set off- OUCH! He’ll be FINE. I know what you’re going through, and once you’re no longer pre-eclamptic, things will look much better. *hugs*

July 16, 2012

You should be able to choose the doctor!! Especially since this is planned ahead. Your doctor should get a report from your er visits. They should ask you when you go to the er who your primary doc is. Hugs! I would be nervous too oh man giving birth seems so scary to me but I’ve never done it!! You will be OK!!

July 16, 2012

I’ll get you a bandaid seeetie.

July 16, 2012

Ugh. What a weekend. I’m sorry you got such bad news and are having to deal with so much. I’m sure your little nugget will be just fine, but yeah I’d be worried and stressed out too. I really hope you get a nicer doctor when you go back in! Nobody wants a broken vagina.

July 16, 2012

BIIIIG hugs homes..I mean damn, I saw the title and was like ‘FUUUUDGE, get that lady some pain killaz!!’. boo @ grizzly doc.

July 16, 2012

Usually a broken vagina means they are trying to strip your membranes so you go into labor before the scheduled inductions- they just don’t tell you that. Hope it goes well and your pain eases up a bit.

Oh NOES broken vagina still????? Well by the time it’s good again you’ll be pushing baby out. LOL. Sorry.

July 16, 2012

I’m with Princess Pitbull…did you hire grizzly, racka man? My guess is no, so ask for who you want. They really should stop the practice of “you get who’s on when it happens”.

July 16, 2012

Hugs.

Good luck! Hope your vagina gets well soon!

July 16, 2012
July 17, 2012

Some Doctors are just idiots who don’t care. Same as anyone, trouble is that a Dr. is really someone you want to care! Good luck! You’ll do great!

July 17, 2012

My friend…. Oh buddy. I watched her contractions go from every 17 minutes to every 7. I don’t think she has to get induced. She’s not over due, the kid is supposed to come in August. but he seems to really want out… that or he is being expelled by her body and he is fighting to stay in. GOOD LUCK Mama’s!!

July 17, 2012

Ohhh so close!!!!

July 17, 2012

I am so sorry about your physical pain in your poor hoo hoo! I hope you get a female doctor. Are you going to Woodland Hills Kaiser or Panorama City? I like WH better. I will be thinking of you and praying it all goes perfectly. I know it must have gone by slow for you but this pregnancy went by like wildfire to me. I am so excited, Baboo is going to be a GREAT dad! Yay!

July 17, 2012

You should be able to request that he not… can you?

Im sorry your vagina is broken. That makes me sad in a weird way. However, its Tuesday night now and I am SUPER excited to hear that Mr. Nugget-Britches is on his way soon. Love your face and I hope for an easy labor and delivery for you.

July 18, 2012

Happy Induction Day! I’ll be thinking about you. *hugs* *does the excited dance* Everything will be just fine, so no worrying okay! That is a command, not a request! 🙂 Ryn: Thanks hun.

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