Are you happy now?

I’m not.

I’m so conflicted. It’s the lamest way to feel ever.

and i’m just a whale and that sucks.

it all sucks.

i want to go to bed now. but that would be weird.

i wanna text superhottie, but that would mean being up way too late if he responded.

I wanna do something other than be me.

it’s impossible.

It’s amazing how i can control where i walk and what i say and how i move and all that but i can’t control how i feel.

and i feel so damn lonely it’s like having a core of ice.

and yeah, i’m supposed to be looking towards the future and focusing on other things, but no not no not no.

not no.

bah.

i hate.

this is pointless. it’s not helping.