anxiety is annoying

Man… it is very odd how it never seems like I’m THIS hormonal the month before… but I must be this hormonal all the time or I wouldn’t feel so used to it.

Which doesn’t make sense. How can something seem foreign and yet familiar at the same time?

I just don’t get how I can ride such a crazy emotional roller coaster ALL THE TIME and yet not go completely crazy.

I could be completely crazy and not even realize it. this is very possible.

I went through an anxiety attack just now. I am really  just starting to recognize them.

I got all anxious (ha) and couldn’t focus on work. My fingertips were burning and I couldn’t stop my heart from pounding in my chest. It felt like I had been running, but I’ve just been sitting here.

Very agitated.

annoying.

ugh.

so… an hour and a half of work left.

I can’t wait to get out of here. away away  away….