and that makes it all whatever

I want to get drunk so bad. I bought a bunch of mikes so it would be easy…. IF my tolerance hadn’t built up. yep. it’s official. i used to drink 2 and feel like falling over. Now i have to have at least do uble that.

boo hiss! drinking is expensive.

I still have almost an entire bottle of vodka in my closet.

but… still scared of it.

I have movies I can watch. I got Fullmetal Alchemist (anime) and also Pulse, and also the new Pirates of the Caribean.

I have Final Destination 3 as well, i’ve had that for ages.

I have to get a move on with my scarves.

and i MUST start my dvd or it won’t get done.

GOD THE AIR IS DRY.

I feel like a piece of sandpaper.

I need to take another shower and lotion myself to oblivion. then i’ll be smooth and creamy.

god help me i want to text superhottie.

but i shouldn’t.

no no no.

noooooooooooooo.

but. UGH., horny. need need want!

maybe tomorrow.

i dunno.

blah! evil urges.

i could work a bit on my story, but my heart isn’t in it right now so I know I won’t do the editing the way I really want to.

even though I"ve eaten like some sort of hippo, i’ve lost 3 pounds this week.

that’s quite strange if you ask me.

maybe my lack of caring has done it. i have thrown all of my stress into the abyss in the middle of my brain. so i dont’ care much about anything at all.

so maybe that’s it.

hmm,

the i don’t give a fuck diet.

yay!

i wanna fuck.

the end.