add another block to my tower of weirdness

oh the weirdness never ends.

Ole brandon decided to message me today.

it would seem he never deleted me from his friends list, "a psycho girl" he was dating did it… or so he claims. and he never knew i was deleted and never got any messages i sent him. oh whatever. if it’s true, ok, but i’m skeptical… but the thing is… i don’t really care one way or the other. he’s in boston, i’m in cali, it has no bearing on my life what he’s doing. so if he wants to be my friend, then he may have the utmost extreme pleasure of knowing ME, not the other way around. bah.

ha!

my issue is like, he hasn’t said hi or bye to me in months, and suddenly… he’s cool with me and wondering how i am and "hey, i didn’t know we weren’t friends" and blah blah blah.

what a weirdo.

the timing is retarded.

and what was f unny, is my last entry title (It’s cold, i’m crazy), i made it my status on yahoo.

and he said

"it is cold and you are crazy"

and i wasl ike HE READS MY DIARY?!!!

hahah, but he doesn’t. it was just my status message. heh heh

but it was just weird, ya know?

anyway, now he’s just chatting me up telling me how much money he’s making and how successful he is and how great his life is.

and i’m going ‘yes, good, great. good"

and it’s just weird.

so add this to another component of my insanity right now.

i am SICK AND TIRED of boys, and the ones i haven’t spoken to in ages, well one of them anyway, decides to talk to me.

it’s making me shake with some internal fury of way my life works.

i don’t like it.

i’m not getting googly or weird over him. that is dead.

it just doesn’t make sense… that he suddenly finds me interesting to talk to after all this time.

or maybe it’s because he can brag and boast about his wonderful life to someone who won’t tell him to shut the hell up.

even if i should, i won’t. he can talk to me if he wants.

i’m so numb, it doesn’t even matter.

i got some pumpkins.

they are three sizes. a huge, a medium, and the itty bitty one jonathon got from the pumpkin patch.

we shall make a cute pumpkin family.

i’m gong to go lay down.

my head is tired of thinking.

and it’s warmed up a little.

but now i’m too shakey to type properly…