a horrible nightmare

 

 There is this buzzing noise and it’s driving me crazy.

and thus starts my Wednesday.

Actually, this "day" has been horrible since last night.

If that makes sense.

I had this really vivid horrific nightmare where Baboo had slit my throat and my blood was coming out and making bright red splashes on this dark green grass. It was so scary. I couldn’t believe it was happening and the blood was just SO RED and it was thick and so real looking. I didn’t really feel any pain though.

He was holding my neck from behind, like dangling my body face down and I was struggling and saying "Isn’t this enough?!" and he would growl "no!" and yeah. It was horrible. And it was like, I knew it was a dream and I was trying to wake up and I couldn’t. Then these two people were standing nearby making comments about it all (turns out there was this dumb infomercial on tv and it was bleeding into my dream) and yeah. I woke up in a righteous fit. I told him to turn off that damn infomercial and I couldn’t sleep for the rest of the night.

It sucked.

I feel like zombie doom.

Rewind some more to last night and Baboo, in his logic, said that we should go to the family gathering and make the most of it, not for our benefit, but for the children.

So we shall. I appreciate him bringing reason into it all.

He has this idea that he can bring a peace offering to my step mother. She really likes horses and he thinks if he buys her a figurine it will show that he wants to be accepted and that he has paid attention to things she likes and whatnot.

I have no idea if it will work. She’s on crazy lately. I dunno.

I don’t know how to interpret all of it. We used to be so close. She raised me from when I was 2 years old. She’s more mother to me than my crazy ass bio mom. We had a period of time in my teenage years where we were REALLY close…

but something is shifting. Like she’s taking on the role of crazy preacher from my father.

I have no idea.

whatever.

So I guess we’re going. We’ll go pick out some horse related something for my mother tonight, along with drinks, because for whatever reason, my parents dont’ have any drinks except for water.

but, in reality, I’m sure they have a giant pallet of soda’s but they want to hoard them and not share.

WHAT. EVER.

oh well, I gotta get to some work. I’ll be back later.

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November 25, 2009

Seriously…..Your parents would hoard sodas? Your dad is pretty well off, isn’t he? Your stepmom must be going through a psycho menopause.

November 25, 2009
November 25, 2009

If she doesn’t accept him after that thoughtful gift.. she really IS crazy. There are not many that would pay attention like and try like is trying.

*Big hugs to Baboo* He is right, you know. *Evil grin*

November 25, 2009

It’s Baboo pretending to be a zombie. I think my mom is this way. The older she gets the more retarded she gets. I guess we are all human though huh? Maybe one day we will be crazy like that too. Cuz you know, right now, we are perfectly sane. ;p

November 25, 2009

Blah. Either way, make it clear that you accept her for her, and that you let her live her life as she chooses – she should offer you the same respect in return. That’s said nicely enough, right?

November 25, 2009

I am glad you guys decided to go. I had a stupid Zombie dream last night. I woke up scared. One of my co workers had nightmares last night too. I guess it was a night for nightmares.

November 25, 2009

I had a dream that I had a baby doll that I treated like a real baby, and I got upset when I forgot it at home.

November 25, 2009

Wowow, that’s so horrible! Good luck with the family

i hope baboo’s idea works!! best of luck hun!

November 25, 2009

Girl I hear ya on shifting roles, my gma is a preacher and my mom is just like me, well lately my mom’s been reading the bible and trying to get me into it too.-sigh- We just can’t win can we? I hate nightmares, especially when they’re vivid they keep my stomach turning for days.

what does zombie doom feel like?

November 25, 2009

HUGS Sorry about that dream you had. And also hope Baboo can make some head way with her with that attempt he has planned. Good luck to both of you.

November 25, 2009

It will interesting to see if the figurine softens your Stepmom up. When I used to get soda I would usually not drink it right away. my boyfriend joked I had a pantry full of soda. His son actually believed him. One day he told me he had peeked in my pantry but not found the stash, ha! Dreams can seem so real while dreaming. I hate how infomercials get sucked into your dreams, it’s crazy!

November 25, 2009

that’s definitely not a good dream. I would tend to prefer not to have those ones.

That’s really sweet of Baboo- I love how much he seems to be maturing into his role. You’ve got a great man for yourself. Horrible nightmare though! Yikes.