6 Days as a full time Mommy/ Think too much!

Yay! My little mini vacation is starting tomorrow! I get to act like I stay home and take care of my son for 6 whole days! (well, I know the weekend doesn’t technically count, but I’m making it count anyway!) I don’t have to come back to work until an ENTIRE WEEK from now… not until Wednesday. I’m so thrilled. I hope I don’t pee my pants. Heh heh.

I hope I don’t have some major catastrophe and need to vent it out and not be able to because I don’t use my computer at home. I might have to dust it off! I can sense I’m about to have a break down anyway. I can tell I am when I really crave listening to Fiona Apple and I start to really think too much.

Now thinking isn’t a bad thing, per say, but in my case, I just get carried away and end up in some pit in hell before I’m done. Lately, as I’ve said in my last entry, DG has really been in my head. I hate it, if you want me to be honest. I hate it, and yet I welcome it. Because I know there are things inside of me that just aren’t flushed out yet. It’s my way of really getting up off my little butt and figuring out where I need to head… in a FORWARD direction. But damn it, it hurts so bad.

Hopefully though, I can fight back the urge to dissolve while I’m at home loving my little boy. He’s my life, the only freaking reason I’m even here. And he deserves the absolute best from me. And he’ll get it too.

Anyhow, I’m off to my vacation, I’m going to try not to think, and I’m going to saturate my son with every ounce of attention I can give him. And hopefully, I’ll get some pictures on my computer and update his webpage!

I hope that this years Thanksgiving is totally wonderful for everyone. I think that this year, a lot of people have so very much to actually be thankful for… I think that I myself do. I look back at things I’ve written, and I’ve gotten this far. My son is so aweseome, and because of him, my life is aweseome too. And I’ll always be thankful for that.

*huggzz*