where to start…

 okay first off, I’m not going to push my beliefs on anyone… so please if you don’t like other’s religious views, skip my entry….

so as in the title, where to start… there has been so much going on here lately, which for the personal family stuff i’ll save that for my friend’s entry… just not gonna put that out there for the world..

anyway, I guess I begin at the beginning… about the beginning of the year I was out with mom doing the "junk store" shopping we love to do. Every now and then over the past year or so I would glimpse a book that would peak my interest, but it was always the middle of the series, and I could never find the first one.  I’m sure most of you read these books when they first came out but at that time I really wasn’t in any state of mind to even be interested in them… what series you’re asking right…. lol well the Left Behind series. 

So we were out "junk store" shopping and I came across the first 3 books in the series and I said okay so I’m getting these to see what it’s all about. Well let me tell you I couldn’t put the books down, and once I finished the third book I couldn’t wait to find the next one and so on….some I even resorted to buying the ebook version…just so I could get on with the series. I have read the complete series and i"d say by the 7th book I had prayed the prayer that I’m a sinner and I know that Jesus died for my sins and he’s the only way to heaven. I was just so awakened by these books. 

I mean i went t church when I was little, every Sunday, every Wednesday and every special function. But I just don’t think I grasped the reason behind it back then. At that time, it was just something special I did with my grandma. I would say I actually left the church by the time I was in middle school. It just wasn’t cool anymore. I mean I didn’t get into bad things until way after high school, but I lost my faith, if I had ever actually had it. 

I can’t believe the utter difference in myself since I’ve accepted God as my savior. I have wanted to be surrounded by his word everyday. I have talked more with Chai about her faith and what they talk about in Sunday school. I haven’t wanted to read anything that hasn’t been about some sort of scripture or story about coming to God. 

I find myself understanding a lot more of the new testament through the books I’ve been reading. Not only the Left Behind series, but the Babalyon rising series and the book "are we living in the end times" I’ve just received a new book in the mail, one of the Jesus Chronicles. This one is Mark’s Story. I can’t wait to get to it, but I decided that I want to read Matthew’s Story first, so I’m waiting on that one to get here. 

Normally when I’m in the kitchen cleaning, cooking or crafting with the kids I have the radio on. Typically it’s set to the country station, but I just haven’t been in the mood for country music. I’ve been playing Chai’s christian playlist on my phone and I’ve just felt so satisfied. 

I even got rid of a few things from another "religion" I won’t post what it was so not to offend anyone on here, but I just had the utmost desire to get the stuff out of my house and when I did I was so content with my decision. 

I have gotten myself back on the right path, finally fixing the things I"ve needed to fix for a long time. Not just spiritually, but as well as financially and getting back into school. For those of my friends who are reading this you might have noticed i changed my degree again on my front page. I’ve decided that I really love my job with the daycare and I want to get my degree in early childhood education. I’ve found a school that I think I like best, but I still have time to decided because I have to pay off my last semester at my old college since they don’t have the degree I want. I’ve called that school, made a payment plan which starts next month. Next on my list is the other bills I owe. I just seem to be more focused on bettering my situation now that I have found God again. I know he was never lost and that he never gave up on me, so I guess I should say since I found myself with God again. 

Now I have a question of faith that I want to ask those of you who have had God in their lives for a long while… when it comes to attending church I have a slight problem. My job doesn’t always allow me time to attend. Mainly because I have too many kids to watch or even take with me if their parents were okay with them going. it’s not all the time, but most Sundays I just can’t make it. From the reading that I did with the Left Behind series, they did indeed go to church to connect with others and to praise the lord, but in the end they did a lot of bible study at home and in secret in the end times. So should I try to free my schedule up on Sundays (which could hurt a lot of parents and my income) or should I just continue to study and attend when possible?

Thanks for taking your time to read this….. and again to anyone I offended by putting this up here, that wasn’t my attention, I really just want to find the answers that I’m looking for and maybe some new friends in Christ.