war on the homefront….family war that is

so here i sit, in the dark, mash on tv, chai sleeping in her bed…..house kind of quiet……it is so flippin hard not to just move from here…..i love my parents, that’s why i moved in…so i could help them out, but now that my sister and her two kids and her maybe boyfriend moved in i’m ready to scream.

chai is so miserable, harlie is always picking on her, and of course my dad takes harlie’s side no matter what happens….yesterday harlie took chai barbie, (i know typical kid stuff) she hid it and we didn’t find it until today, she had hidden it in a closent and dad said "harlie tell chai your sorry altho it probably just fell there on accident" but if chai takes something of harlie’s omg it’s war, she’s just a terrible child….i just don’t know what to do….cause if i were to move out right now, my mom would be hurt for one, and for two, my sister hardly gives her any money….so she’d be worse off than she was when i moved in

i know chai is not the perfect child, but i don’t see why my dad treats her so bad…i mean last night he and harlie were sitting in the front room eating donuts and chai came out and asked for one he said "no chai these are my donuts, go back and play in your room" then harlie takes one and when chai came back out an saw her with it, she cried and dad said "you don’t need any, harlie just took it, these are mine" i just wanted to scream ITS A F***ING DONUT GIVE HER ONE…..

mom doesn’t understand why i’m so mad about everything here lately, but chai’s old enough to see that dad treats her different…asides that she is the  middle grandchild, so she has to deal with harlie being paw paw’s favorite and zoey being the baby….

my sister says she’s going to try to get her own place here after taxes…but i don’t see it happening, one she doesn’t have her own car, she’s driving mine, two, she’d have to actually pay rent and bills…really don’t see it happening.

christmas is going to be interesting…..i’ve gotten chai so many presents, harlie isn’t getting as much as she is…..and i’ve tried to spend a lot on harlie, but her mom didn’t spend a whole lot on her, so when harlie is done unwrapping presents and chai still has a pile i see a temper tantrum…..i know it’s not about getting things, but explaining to a 5 year old why her 3 year old cousin has more presents is going to be very difficult…..but maybe it won’t be as bad as i’m thinking….cause mom bout them both a bunch of presents….so maybe, just maybe it will go okay……

well i’m gonna get off here, get some sleep and hope for a better tomorrow…i know i have it better than a lot of people, just a bit irked right now

luv cole