time to catch up

so it’s been a while at least to me it has, not that i have any advide readers on here….so this is basically just a rant to kill time…i’m sittting here at the college comp lab waiting on my friend to get outta her math thing….

i’m doing great in all my classes, which kinda suprises me since it’s been so long since i’ve been in school….i might even make the dean’s list if i can raise my math grade up to a "b"….all the medical terminology and human orginism and intro to physical therapy i’m doing great there….so school is going great all around…

as far as life in its self, it’s going moderatly great… i’m not stressed about anything, but issues are popping up in my subconscious (did i even spell that right) and putting it into dream format and just making me not sleep very well….my ex is making his way back into my life, but not as an boyfriend, just asking me how things are going and all that junk…that kinda wiggs me out just cause i know that i would take him back in a heart beat, even tho he cheated on me…but then again, i also realize that i was smart enought to kick him out and i’ve been doing way better than i was when he was there….so maybe my rational thinking will out weight my emotional thinking..(let my ethics proff read that one)

i did however meet this guy, he’s in a band and we met through my best friend in the whole world, Tiffany….she planned a whole night of me and her going out, set up a babysitter and all that just for me a while back after all this happened with Arron (the ex) and well she hangs with this band, who are just awesome, called Bad Mamma Jamma…(http://www.badmammajamma.zoomshare.com) and i got to hang with them that night. (this happened like in September) and i had a great time, ended up talking with Kent most of the night about music, books, religion and of course being a semi-young single-parent (i think 26 counts as semi-young) but we had an amazing time….so then Tiffany and i spent the night at the bands house so we didn’t drink and drive, so end of the night i had  a great time…So in October Tiffany moved to Flordia and all that, then she came up for Christmas, and hung with me a few days then went to see everyone in Athens…then she calls me up and gives me Kent’s cell number, telling me that he wants to get a hold of me…so i called him and he invited me down to watch them play….it was for lack of better words, awesome, energetic and they just rocked….so that was my hightlight of the year so far in the personal life….hopefully more updates to come with that area…but even tho it may not go the way i’m wanting it, i will still love the band….good music

so here i am at 26 (27 tomorrow) and i’m crushin on a guy, who knows i have a lil’ girl who will be 2 and i have my ex stormin back in my life, and i’m surviving my first quarter back at college and i’m not stressed….i think that is a good thing, althought i do feel like i’m back in high school with the whole crushin on Kent….

i keep thinking if only i would have done this differently (in my earlier days), but i’ve come to realize that everything happens for a reason, be it good or bad, and that it’s all just one great big lesson that you’re always going to be learning and trying to improve yourself by looking at the conquencenses of your past actions…..a word to the meek who are willing to do anything to fit in to that ideal group that you idolize, when it comes down to it years from now, you’re going to wonder what you were thinking and why you let that control the aspect of your life.