searches & shaving

so my mom got this bright idea when she came home.. that it was such a nice day outside that we should shave Sadie (our golden retriever) … which just happens to be my dad’s dog lol… of course he wasn’t home when she decided to do it… she asked me to hold on to Sadie while she did the shaving.. I had her start out with a 6 clip on it…. and that wasn’t working at all so i switched it out to a 1… well she decided that wasn’t short enough and decided to take the clip off and just shave her that way… dad is going to be pissed… lol she looks so funny…and I don’t think I did a very good job. Mom had to go to the docs with Kia for his blood test and chest xray results, so I got stuck finishing her… yeah lets just say it’s a good thing I don’t cut Malachai’s hair.. I think she looks horrible…it would be okay if mom would have stuck with the 1 instead of no clip at all… dad still isn’t home, I’m praying that mom gets back before he does… then I won’t have him yelling at me… that’s the shaving part of the title (obviously)

the searches part is about what happened at Kia’s school today.. he texted me from class saying the drug dogs where there and that he would be froze in the class he was at until they were done searching the school… so about an hour later he texted me again and said that C got busted… he had trace amounts of weed in his locker and brass knuckles and a pistol… C is the school dream boat I talked about in an earlier entry.. so Kia said he’d let me know what happend soon as he heard… well it turned out to be a BB gun… which is still not a good thing… so what would you expect happen to the boy who had brass knuckles (which I though were illegal in the US) a BB gun that looked like a pistol and traces of weed in his locker? Arrested right? Charges pressed? Well he got a 10 day out of school suspension and all charges dropped for having it on school property. I like C, I do, he was a good kid until he got lost in drugs… and he’s decent when he’s not messed up… but why should he get special treatment because of who is parents are (small town politics) and the reason for dropping all charges? Because the principle didn’t want to hurt his army career before it started… I understand not wanting to give up on the hopes that he will still go to the army, but he’s not learning anything either. He was messed up on the basketball court at the begining of the season and the coaches knew he was… heck I could tell from the stands, he was all over the floor… the boy isn’t learning because there isn’t any serious conquences… I mean what is a 10 day suspension really? a mini vacation for a student… I wish someone could get through to him… he’s messing up his life before it really starts and no one seems to really care… other than to cover it up and give him breaks.. you would think they would learn from the many examples acrossed the country that coverups and breaks just don’t work any more… it doesn’t teach them anything.. and if he does make it to and through boot camp, great, but that doesn’t mean he won’t eventually go back to drugs and his current situation…but that doesn’t mean he will either… (I still have hope for him) … I just don’t think they handled it as best as they could have.. but if they would have pressed charges, since he’s 18, that would have kept him out of the army for sure right?

So right now I am sitting here wondering what I would have done in the principles position.. how do you get through to someone who doesn’t want to  hear what you have to say.. I would like to tell him I know where that road leads.. granted I didn’t get into all that in high school.. I fell in with the wrong crowd in college the first time around… but I quit when it mattered… I got my life straightened out.. and I did it cold turkey… But I know he wouldn’t want to hear it from me… because no one wants to hear about where it’s going to lead them, they want to believe they have everything under control… rather than the addiction controling them..

I quit the day I found out I was pregnant with Malachai, she was my wake up call… and I answered it… was up front with my docs about  everything I had been doing and I had to drug test everyweek @ the docs.. and I did it.. and the doc was amazed.. he said he’s never had someone tell him what I did and not have a dirty test each week… I don’t know how people can be pregnant and continue to lead the life they do…and once they have their children… they go back to their old ways.. I on the other hand bettered our life, went back to school, worked, took care of Malachai and here I am, a college grad with an associates in business and working on a bs in psychology.. I see people that I used to party with worse off than before, with kids, having their kids taken away from them and I just don’t understand it. How was I different from them that I could see that there was something more important than the high? 

Anyway off that ramble.. otherwise we’ll be here all day lol.. I just hope that C will find what’s more important than his high… I hope he does succeed in the army… I will continue to hope until hope is gone..

Kia just got his letter from the college he wants to attend.. he got his application in on time but we had to push his act off because of his surgery.. so I left a message for the dean of admissions hopefuly they will give him an extension .. he’s all excited about going to school.. he was thinking of the military for himself, but he was told that because he had a tumor removed that he wouldn’t be able to join… that kind of put a damper on his plans after high school, but he’s moving on and trying to decided what he’d like to do career wise.. right now he’s looking at public relations, which he will be great in… the boy can argue lol and he has great ideas…teachers love him.. although they say he talks too much!

Dad just came home… don’t hear any yelling yet… but I’m outside with Malachai.. she’s playing on the swingset and trampoline… going back in forth lol.. some kind of game she’s playing wit herself.. now she has the hoola hoop and is dancing to the music playing.. that’s probably another reason I can’t hear any yelling.. but he’s been in the house for at least five minutes.. at least he hasn’t came out and took off in his truck yet.. I swear he acts like a teenager sometimes… even tries to hang with Kia and  his friends… he just discovered facebook about a month or so ago… and okay I understand that I’m not a teen either and I use it and that there are other older people who use it too..but he was seeking out Kia’s friends and add requesting them…and of course being typical highschool boys, they teased Kia a bit about it… nothing too bad but yanno… so Kia came home all pissed and yelled at dad about it.. Dad even tried to get me to add him as a friend… i denied it.. I mean come on I live with hm…does he reallly need to know what I post on facebook? I don’t even have Kia as a friend on there.. he has his world and I have mine.. we just happen to live in the same house

well I guess I’m going to get off here for now… have a few things to get done before it gets late.. dinner for Malachai and of course bath homework and all th

at jazz… and I have homework of my own to do lol.. I need to get it done tonight… otherwise I’m not going to pass this class.. I just have no desire to do this work…and that’s not me at all.. must be spring fever… anyway

more later

<3 Cole