letters from far away and other junk

 so mom brings the mail in today, and not only do i have one envelope from our soldier but two… kinda crazy that he’s written so much, but i’m glad too. we’ve gotten a few emails from other soldiers and stuff, but nothing like this. it makes me glad that i got his name, but not for us,… i honestly think he’s one of the soldiers who doesn’t have support from family while he’s gone, but he really hasn’t said anything specific about that…just that support from others make a lonely soldier’s day… so yeah…was nice to get the cards today. (side note http://www.soldiersangels.org check it out)

not a whole lot going on here, the kiddo is at her friend’s house…they are doing the every other night thing for the rest of christmas break… i had them last night, and the night before they were at her friend’s house, which with not having daycare kiddos over break, this is actually giving me time to myself…not that i need a whole lot of time, just it’s nice to be able to take time out to finish reading or just to even stare blankly at the tv for an hour. 

my daycare schedule is picking back up next semester…i’m getting 2 of my kiddos back that have been gone since like june of this year…well actually i’m getting one of the boys and the new baby sister…the older boy is now in school all day long… so i won’t have him at all 🙁 i really miss my kiddos, even the most stressful days….they keep me busy and i love seeing them grow and learn… speaking of learning, i’ve got to do some lesson plans! i finally have a kiddo i can do lesson plans for again… the two/three that i’ve had the whole year, one is in school, so when he gets here after school the 2 days a week i have him, he really doesn’t want to do much with learning…he’d rather play so i don’t force it… sometimes i can get him to do stuff with us though…and the other two, well they are 1 & 2, so not much with the learning aside from doing motor skill stuff and abc’s and colors and all that….no projects yet though lol… i really can wait to get my little miss L back… she is like my own…as much as i’ve had her she has just become a second daughter to me… 6 more months….i hope! her mom is back to work up in her home town….finally the docs released her for work about the middle of this month…so now she has to save $ to move back down here… i really hope that still happens…she seems to be very homesick for this area, so i’m pretty sure they are coming back….

i’m sitting here in the front room with mom & dad…they are watching the uk game… and uk isn’t doing so well…i love my dad, but boy, he has an opinion about everything and i just want to yell "then you go coach the team" lol… it’s frustrating…with everything he knows the facts and what ne one else says is wrong, no matter if they are really right. but i wouldn’t trade him for ne thing lol… just have to yell a bit more to get my point across i guess! 

my sister still hasn’t woken up… we didn’t get to see the girls for christmas, which of course killed my parents…this is the first year that we haven’t seen them for the holidays, even when she moved them up north a few years back… her husband i would like to do horrible things to, because i know he is doing emotional damage and more than likely physical damage to my nieces and my sister… i don’t want to sound cold, but i don’t care what my sister chooses to live through, but she has no right to stay with an abusive drunk and put her kids through that….when will she wake up and see? 

i got a text last night from my friend…who is married to the kiddo’s dad’s brother….so she is the kiddo’s aunt…and she tells me the hubby has beat her for the past two nights and that he took the rent money and spent it on alcohol….the their two kids saw the whole thing….so i get her the number for the place here in athens, it’s called my sister’s place….they help abused women and children start over….but he got back home in the middle of us texting and i didn’t hear from her again last night…but she texted this morning said she’d text me later… i told her that the ball is in her court now, that she is the only one that can fix this problem, she has to ask for help and be ready to end the life with him. i love him, he is one of my best friends but it sickens me that he thinks beating his wife is ok, and in front of his kids… what is this world coming to… so many of my friends, my family are hurting because of bad relationships or drugs or a combination of both, and if they would just wake up and take hold of the lifelines they have available to them they could be on the path to getting better… 

i don’t understand the hold drugs have on people… i am coming from personal experience… i’ve been there, i’ve been addicted to drugs….i’ve lived in a house like that, and the day, the absolute day i found out i was pregnant with the kiddo, i quit the drugs, and i moved out of the house…granted i’ve had ups & downs since then (mainly the one relationship) but i’m in a better place all because of my little angel… and i’m not talking about smoking weed…that’s easy to kick at any point in time… i was taking 10 extasy pills a day when i found out i was pregnant… i was using prescription pain killers…i was drinking everyday, and i chose to give those up and take care of my child…. how come no one else can choose their children over their addiction? 

okay off my rant….sorry my friend and my sister got all that stirred up in my head again…it’s a common rant of mine when i see kids not being taken care of…

so anyway i had a goal of writing on here more for the new year….i had hoped i would get to at least 25 entries this year…which this is now #26… woo hoo… i want to surpass the biggest number of entries i’ve had in a year, which is 54…so my goal for next year to to beat that…i would really like to update every week at least, but we’ll see…depends on how much time i have with the daycare schedules….but ne way things are good here with me, in my life…not so much with the lives of people i love….i need to rant about the kiddos dad and stuff but i’m kinda saving that for after the new year… well the 4th to be exact… they supposidly sent her a christmas present, but it’s on back order and it will be here on the 4th….says the stepmom in a text… he didn’t bother calling the kiddo on christmas day to say merry christmas… but she was in heaven ne way, she went with his mom to their family christmas and had a blast with his family…and his mom bought me 3 gifts for christmas….which gave me an inside giggle, because it kills his wife that we are so close (she knows his mom would have rather had me for a daughter-in-law….she heard her telling him he married the wrong one) lol….petty to be giggly about this, probably, but i deserve to be a little petty….

anyway, going to end this for now….need to finish a few things in my room and then maybe write an entry later….