crying baby staring at me…..

 i feel  so horrible lol…but her parents are trying to break her of her co-dependent needs for sleep, especially at 3am! so here i 

am trying to get her to nap, but she’s been crying and staring at me for the last hour…well now she’s having a moment of quite, laying down in the pack-n-play…but i figure she’ll be standing up and crying again in the next 5 minutes….

so anyway, it’s been a few days, maybe even a week since i wrote here….the last two entries were about recipes i made from my new book that my kiddo got me for christmas….well i’ve made a ton more of the recipes, i just haven’t had time to sit down and write about them….the daycare is hopping this semester. i have kids everyday, and pretty much all day long….today is a bit of a breather, because i only have the little one….tuesdays are going to be my big day….i just had a friend call and ask if i could watch her 4 girls from 530am-830pm on tuesdays….lol add that to the kids i already have on tuesdays and well that totals 11 for the day…thankfully mom will be here with me to help me get things done…it’s not so hard to mutli-task with the 7 that i currently have, but i’m just thinking that adding 4 more to the mix might be asking for disaster, but money is money and i definitely want to be able to help my friend out….

i was wrong she is now asleep lol…so an hour of crying is what it takes to get her to sleep without cuddling…..sheesh

my taxes will be here soon….the irs accepted my return and they are now processing it…which means i can finally pay some bills of my own…. is it bad that i lied to my parents about how much i’m getting back? i feel like it is…but at the same time, i know that if i tell them the whole amount that i will be paying on bills other than my personal ones….not that i haven’t used their credit cards and such over the last year….but i paid them off last year at tax time, and i know as soon as i pay them off, dad will get his itchy spending hand….and start to max out his card again….mom too, but at least her spending last year was on house repairs and such… a little bit of shopping, but not a whole lot…she’s getting better about spending money…

i swear it would be so much easier if my brother would be paying more money on the month…he’s making more money than i am and he’s just putting it in the bank, saving money for  his own house….must be flippin nice….mom’s not happy about it but dad told him $200 on the month…and let me tell you…that just might cover his groceries for the month….we pay his car  insurance, all the utilities, the house payment, his cell phone and everything else in between. spoiled he is…i know this…..but i can’t really complain about it here ne more…i mean mom isn’t happy about it but bub just ignores her or says he’ll just move out if he has to give more money…i finally told him…good luck finding somewhere to live on $200 a month that pays all bills and does his laundry and cooking for him…. 

so that’s why i lied about my return lol….because i want to be able to one pay off some of my personal bills, and two put some money into the kiddo’s savings account….plus have a bit of money in my checking account to have incase i actually need it for something…. 

anyway, i should probably go clean a bit in my room since the baby finally went to sleep…so it can’t be said i sat here and did nothing today…sometimes i wonder if it would be easier to just move out again…but then i remember that one, i like the extra stability for chai that being here provides, and two, well mom would be on the verge of loosing the house again if i don’t do her bills and manage her money….they still haven’t adjusted much to not being able to shop like they used to….when dad wasn’t disabled and had a really good paying job… 

more later, and i promise the reviews on the other recipes as soon as i get the chance to put them on here…