avoidence….

so right now i’m sitting here trying to figure out what i need to do in the house…which i really don’t want to be doing. i swear, there isn’t ever enough time in the days…but then again if i wasn’t sitting here i’d be getting it done lol.. i’m having a school/home issue… dad seems to forget that even though i’m here at the house, that i am actually doing school work…so he’s been complaining to mom that i don’t do anything all day long…but when my overage check comes from school…he makes sure he tells me he’d like to have something…. bah!  he’s just a pain in the ass sometimes… mom reminded him that if i wasn’t taking classes online that i wouldn’t be home during the day and then he wouldn’t have ne thing to complain about…although she’s sure he’d think of something…lol.. he just gets in these moods sometimes…and he forgets that i moved in to help them out….that i gave up my nice little house where it was just me and chai…gave up our eating style, because we mostly ate no meat.. chicken was about all we’d eat… and organic stuff…well now we can’t really do that because he’s a burgers, steak, ribs, etc. guy… so yeah needed to rant about that… he just makes me crazy sometimes…

kia is doing a bit better on the meds…although it’s only been three days… he’s actually ready to sit down and do the college stuff… nothing like waiting till the last minute… so here we are rushing around to meet deadlines… and he managed to get into the last act test schedule…it’s in june… so now he’s going to be studying for that…. he’s decided on a major…well i think he has… public relations…and he’s decided on a school…. so maybe, hopefully he will stick with these decisions since he’s on the meds… one can only hope!

i’m finding myself thinking of people at the oddest times… (rach don’t kick me) … it happens to be arron… but it came about because of one of mom’s friends…one of her son’s names is aaron… so after hearing it for a while…just get to thinking… not that he’s around so it’s not like i can let him waltz back in again… so after thinking about him at random times… my sister calls this morning and asks me if he’s still with the west virginia guard unit…because they just deployed out… but he’s been in flordia for a couple years now…either with a guard unit there or with a private military company…. that the military outsources too… i know he’s been flying and that he’s been deployed…but nothing more than that (remember his mom is my mom’s boss) so it’s not a matter of me trying to find out info….his mom tells my mom who then tells me…and of course i’m like "okay" thinking the whole time "why are you telling me this" it’s not that i don’t care about him… cause i don’t want him to get wounded or dead while he’s deployed…but i don’t exactly want to be reminded of him everyday …so hopefully after writing it down i can get him out of my mind…. watch him show up on the door step in the next couple of weeks…that would be my luck lol…

summer is almost here…malachai gets outta school on june 8th… mom will be leaving for flordia around that time…she’s going with a friend from work….all by herself….guess how long that took me to get her to do it…. she was like "what about your dad" i told her to go ne way he’ll survive…. it’s not like i won’t be here to make sure he doesn’t do ne thing too stupid…although i might just plan something to do with chai where we won’t be home that week…maybe camping with aunt tami… lol that will be fun…

i’ll start my psych major next semester…so it’s going to be a lot of fun… i’m excited about all my classes (except for math) i swear i will never get math… i mean the harder stuff….i’m good up till geo & trig (thankfully don’t have to take that) i still have statistics to take with this major… i think that class is a requirement for every major at franklin…

i could crawl back in bed…. i didn’t sleep very well last night… was still awake at 230am… and my alarm was set for 530…needless to say i didn’t get up at 530 lol…slept for 2 more hours…got the kiddo up for school… she was happy because it’s warm enough for shorts…she has been trying to wear them since the last snow melted away lol… then i worked a bit on class work… then breakfast and a shower..and now here i am…

i have a bit more work to do, but i need to do some stuff around the house… dad was just up and i’m betting that he’s pitching a fit because i haven’t started ne thing yet…he thinks i need to start house work as soon as i get up…. pain in the ass i’m telling ya lol…

anyway i’m running out of things to say at the moment… i did realize yesterday that my entry was the first entry of 2010… lol go figure with me huh…more later

luvs cole