You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone…
This weekend has been great. It’s gotten a little up and down since I got home, but still very good.
Friday night John came and got me. Tina brought him, and he came and talked to my mom for a while. I’m so glad that she likes him. We went to the house of bottles (Belvidere liquor store) and got some alcohol for the weekend. John got a big ass bottle of Rumchata for me, and a handle of UV blue and some little slushie things and we were homeward bound.
Got there and started takin shots of the Rumchata shortly after getting home. Twas delicious as fuck. Myleah was there (little girl Tina watches) and Tina and I sat down and took her hair out. She’s a little black girl, and we got to take out at least 20 braids. It was so intense. John made a nice big fire and I sat out there for a while. It was so nice. Was going to go back in the house as John was walking out and he pulled me in and I told him I was just coming to find him. He said he was doing the same, then asked why I was finding him. Kinda giggled and went in the house. We hung out with everyone for a while before going up to bed. Which was amazing… Two and a half hours… Dear god I didn’t know sex could ever be so perfect. I’ve never had anyone ever treat me the way John did, and it was so perfect. He is so… God. Fell asleep shortly after, naked as can be. Happy as fuck. I loved it.
John had work Saturday, so he was up early and whatnot. I slept in until about noon I think then went downstairs to get ready and whatnot. Tina, Bill, Chaz, Animal, Myleah and myself all went to the fair. It was nice. We let Myleah go on all kinds of rides, and she had a BLAST. She’s so damn cute. She was holding my hand almost the whole time. John didn’t come since he had work and Sissy left him at home after he got off, so it was kinda a bummer. But Bill, Tina, Myleah and I left around six or so. They took me home then left to take Myleah home and whatnot. John was asleep when I got home so I snuggled up to him for a while before we decided to take a shower together. Which is always beyond perfect. We spent the evening down with the family watching T.V. and whatnot before we chose to go up to bed. Again, perfect. Two hours that night. God… We stayed up for a while after that. Watched some T.V downstairs, went to Subway and McDonald’s with Shane, came home and hung out. Went back up to bed. Actually went to bed after a bit of fooling around haha. Woke up this morning. I don’t even know what time… But we just hung out in the living room until Tee woke up and told me to get ready. We went to Taco Bell and John got me food even though I wasn’t hungry… Kind of starting to realize something… John and Tee dropped me off and I cleaned my room then hopped in the shower. Got ready for a day with Gino.
Yup. Gino is finally home. He isn’t staying for good of course, but he’ll be here for a while. Which is wonderful. I’m going to make sure to spend as much time with him as possible while he’s here. I’m going to make every second count with my best friend. I went to the dam and sat there waiting for him. He scared the shit out of me when he got there. Had my headphones in so I didn’t hear anything. Looked up and there he was. I ripped out my headphones and jumped up and just wrapped around him. I missed him so much… You can tell Asheville wasn’t too good to him. He lost a tooth in a fight, and he’s scarred up from running, but he’s still G. He’s still perfect, and my best fucking friend. We hung out there for a while, and he had an acoustic with him which he kindly played for me while we were there. It’s always great to hear him play. You can tell how passionate he is about his music. After a while we went to Dari Ripple and I bought us some foods. He got a bratt and rootbeer and ice cream cone and I got a cyclone and we just sat by the river enjoying our munchies. Then we walked to big thunder park and sat in the gazebo. He played more acoustic while I layed on the picnic bench that was there. We were there for a while before it got too cold and he walked me home. Gave him a huge hug, told him I loved him and he said "I love you too Case. You better know I love you. I just traveled almost a thousand miles for you. There’s not many people I would do that for." I love my best friend. I don’t want him to go back… Granted it won’t be until March, I know I’ll be counting down the days that I have to spend with him…
I miss John already. Separation anxiety really sucks… It kills me every time I have to come home without him… I just want to wrap up with him and be warm and happy and safe…
Realizing that I may have a slight eating disorder forming… I literally refuse to eat 90 percent of the time… If John hadn’t made me eat this weekend, I know I wouldn’t have… And I know he knows that too… I just feel gross. I don’t want food. I don’t need it that often. Just when I start feeling faint. I don’t want to be fat again. I want to get rid of more weight either way, and this has been working pretty well…
Gah. Gino wants me to let him inside my head. Let him know what’s wrong. What’s going on. What’s bothering me… He doesn’t need to worry…
John has court this Friday. Guess we’ll see if he stays or goes then… I’m so fucking scared I could throw up…
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