Some things are just meant to be bittersweet…

 Well.

Today was a good day.

I hung out with Kolb for a while today. We went to the mall and wandered around for a while, then hung out at his house in the basement talking about things. We talked for hours haha. Random shit. He brought me home later.

While I was at the mall with him Gino texted me saying he was coming home. I was so excited. I was so happy. Now he told me that he’s only coming back to take care of business down here and help me, then he’s going back… It’s all so bittersweet that I can’t even stand it… I don’t know whether I should be happy that he’s coming back on my account, or hurt that he’s just going to leave all over again. That I’m going to have to say goodbye all over again. That I’m going to break all over again. I don’t know.

I’m pretty sure John is upset with me. I don’t know. He isn’t talking much. He seems short with me. I don’t know what I did. I don’t know what to do. I don’t like this. I feel like I did something wrong, and I don’t know what it is and I just want it to be okay.

I’m a wreck tonight. An emotional fucking wreck. I don’t know what to do with myself… I just wanna wrap up with John. Be okay for a while. I want to know that Gino is coming back to stay. I want to know I’m not losing anyone, because right now… I feel like I’m about to lose it all…

<3CaseyRenee<3