Smoke dope erryday.

I know I haven’t written anything in quite some time now, but my thoughts don’t need to be known.

Last night was shitty. Got really pissed off and almost threw up because I got so worked up at like two in the morning, so that was super fun.

I’m really worried about Tori and the environment that she is in right now…

I don’t know what I’m doing this weekend. I don’t feel as though John really wants to see me or talk to me or anything so I don’t know. I’ll probably just sit in my room and think way too much.

Pioneer festival is this weekend. Went with mom and dad today. It was nice. Tomorrow, if I’m still in town, I’ll probably be going again, and this time I’ll bring cash so I can spoil myself a bit. Still gotta figure out my online banking ID so I can look up how much is in my account. I think I’d feel better knowing how much I have saved up.

Still haven’t heard anything from Andrew about the jewelry for my piercings I want to get. He told me he’d get a hold of me once they came in. And that he’d do them all for 60. But I don’t know what’s going on with that. I’m starting to get frustrated. 

I have been way too emotional for my own good lately. I actually almost cut last night. For the first time in months, I almost gave in.

Isn’t the thought almost too sweet to pass up?

<3CaseyRenee<3