I like my kisses down low…

I don’t really know how I feel today…

I don’t really want to go to the wedding today at all… I’m tired and I hurt and I just don’t wanna do it…

My body hurts and something is wrong with my hand. I can barely make a fist. I don’t know what happened.

My feet hurt from walking home barefoot last night so heals are going to feel just fabulous today.

John’s asking me what I want for my birthday, and I honestly don’t want anything. I want my story. I want him. That’s it’. He doesn’t need to spend any money on me.

Jessi asked me what I want too. Told her I don’t know. Because I really don’t. I don’t know what I want because I don’t really want anything. And with how stressed my mom and dad are over money since daddy might lose his job, I don’t want to ask for a single thing from them. I think the only thing I would really want would be a new ipod with more gigs on it. And a camera. I miss having a real camera. 

My sunburn hurts. I got burned everywhere yesterday at the pool. Arms, legs, chest, back, and face. Feels awesome -_- I look like a god damn tomato…

I just want to go back to yesterday. I want to take a different way to Rockford. I want to be paying attention to the road. I want to stop it all from ever happening. I don’t even know. This is really fucking me up… 

I guess that’s all. Mom wants to leave here by 11, and it’s already 10:15 so I need to get the rest of my shit together and get it all put in the car.

<3CaseyRenee<3