I got that trunk music…

Today was such a good day. I don’t know what the fuck happened to me.

We went to Monkey Joe’s for work today, and I had the time of my life. Bounced for hours.

Work went fine. Nothing bad really happened. It was just fine.

Hung out with Jacob today. Drove to Rockford so he could pick up. Didn’t know that’s why we were going to Rockford otherwise I wouldn’t have gone… Then hung out in the car listening to music. Talkin about shit. Got to see Christopher for the first time in years today. No. Not that Christopher. Different one. He’s not a piece of shit like Chris is.

Came home. Don’t know what happened… I’m just in one of the most shitty moods that I haven’t been in for a lonnnng time. I’m just over thinking, over analyzing over stressing about everything. And I’m just frustrated with myself, because the first thought I had was "Oh well I could just do a few little cuts." I just want it to stop.

John is worried about me now because he knows something is wrong and I don’t even know what it really is or what happened. I just don’t want to talk about it. I think my mind won’t accept knowing it, because it’s sure that if I know, I will have to talk about it eventually. I don’t want to talk about it. I just don’t.

I’m just going to go to bed. Hopefully sleep sweetly with no nightmares, and then get through tomorrow.

<3CaseyRenee<3