Holy hell it’s working :)

Well Opendiary is finally working on my computer. It’s about damn time. So much has happened!

John and I aren’t together anymore. Which I mean, oh well… He barely wanted much to do with me it seemed… Yea it kinda sucked, and he went about it in a highly shitty way, but it’s okay…

Jc and I are talking again. Seeing each other. Loving each other. I’ve missed him. A lot… This weekend we’re thinking about renting a hotel room together 🙂 And he said in December he’s going to start looking for apartments. This time it will be in my name, and we are splitting bills. I think it’ll all go smoothly.

Since Jc and I are an item again, to prove to Jc that I really am serious about wanting this to work, I told John that we can’t talk anymore. I know that Jc doesn’t like him, and that is where all of the problems stemmed from before, so it’s only logical right? I wish John the best of luck with his life and future.

Yesterday Megan and I talked. She knows that I’m seeing Jc again and she gave me the whole sister lecture about how I need to remember what happened last time. I don’t care what she or anyone else says. I am going to do what makes me happy and be with who makes me happy. I am not going to apologize to any of them if they get angry at me. I will not apologize for doing what I want and being happy. I will never apologize for being happy.

I got tattooed by Taylor yesterday. He’s the only one at Andy’s I haven’t gotten work done by. He did a really good job. I got a swallow on each of my hips, and they are absolutely beautiful. And they look sexy! Jc told me I need to just keep tatting my stomach haha. I don’t know what else I would get though. That’s something you need to plan. A whole torso piece takes a lot of planning, at least I think so. Plus, I still have a couple of other tattoo ideas that I want to get done. But my mom is right, I do need to save up for a car.

I’m going to try to quit smoking. I only have four cigarettes left in my pack, and then I’m going to do my damn best not to buy anymore. That will SURELY help me save up money faster. I hope I can do this.

Jc and I were supposed to possibly hang out today, but I’m pretty sure he’s still asleep haha. Tomorrow is Monday though, so I’ll just see him when I get off of work. Mondays are still his days off.

My mom is painting in the laundry room and I love the smell. I just feel so wonderful lately. My depression is rarely bad anymore. I think Jc is just what I’ve been needing.

I don’t know what my plans are for the day. Maybe I’ll spend some time with Tori. I haven’t seen her since Friday night. Then we can go to the store and find me some new yoga pants and leggings to wear to work while my tattoos heal up. Can’t wear sweats to work. It’s against the dress code…

I suppose that’s all for now. Tori will be happy knowing that there will finally be an entry for her to read in here 🙂

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