The intensity increases, pt 2

oh counseling.

i sit here shaky, when i thought i was ok.

The last bit was hard. There was even something i could not say, because it was too hard. And i am good at just saying it all.

So, i have learned i am good at compartmentalizing the trauma. I have to move on with my day, with my nephew, with my life. But really i would like to sit with this issue, this one i will share here… and maybe i have shared here. The sunshine, music, writing, me. My life, just myself. That is what i would like right now.

I know i am good at stepping up and taking care of business. I just want to step up and take care of myself.

Lunch time. Spicy noodles. Then nephew, park, home, dinner, movie, perhaps.

Today, please be kind to me.