Trying my best

Do you ever feel like you’re not good enough? I always worry about how I’m doing as a mom. If my kids are going to grow up to say I did my best or if they will grow up and think I wasn’t the best. It really gets to me but today was so good. My youngest had no accidents today at daycare (we’ve been struggling with that.) And my middle one didn’t get in any trouble for not listening like he typically does. So picking them up and knowing they had a great day put me in a fantastic mood. The rest of my day was spent doing things with them that they like. It was just so good.

Before they came home from school today, my not so little brother and I went squirrel hunting. No squirrels were harmed today. We did some target practice tho so it was fun. I moved out when he was 12 so ive been spending a lot of time getting closer to him since ive been back. He’s almost 20 and he towers over me and is your typical country boy so all the things he enjoys doing (wheeling, hunting, fishing, shooting, farm life) are things I love so I always try to include him in every thing I do and he does the same. It makes my heart happy to be close to my siblings like that.

I got a fantastic surprise today! My ex husband (Rob) went to a NRA dinner/auction last week and won a hunting trip to Africa and I was extremely jealous so he called me today to tell me that he got me a concealed carry purse AND a hot pink 38 special to go with it. I was over the moon. We have our issues and he drives me crazy but he’s been really trying to be my friend lately and not ruin every bit of the relationship that we do have left. Im thankful for that because I don’t want our kids to grow up with parents that hate each other. Im very compassionate so I want my kids to be the same way and not hold hatred in their heart.

Since this week is Valentine’s Day and my man friend and I are more than likely not going to be doing anything together (that’s a story for another day) I’ve been feeling kinda blah so I needed this day ❤