The forgiveness sought after

There seems to be nothing left but the echoing sound of that goodbye,
that silent whisper which prevails inside each memory of the past.

Yet here i am,
knowing is life is around the corner,
and i find myself fixing my self,
just so i can be ready to begin this again,
ready to walk this path again,
ready to stain my hands again,
ready to have to heal my heart again,
ready to hear myself cry deep inside,
ready to face the loss of the people i hold so dear,
ready to acknowledge the mistakes i will make,
ready to accept whatever comes in my way.

I seem to have this dream again,
that dream that reigns my everyday sleep,
the one where i find the forgiveness i so anxiously look for,
the one where i am met with all the people i have hurt,
the one where my mind rests from the constant attacks,
of the mistakes i made in my past,
where all the laughs that came from me didnt have to be made up,
where the smiles of the people around me where thanks to me.

So tonight, and every night,
i will pray for that dream to become reality,
so that one wish be granted by my star,
for this forgiveness sought after,
to finally come.