Five Years Later: September 11, 2006

It’s been five years since I woke up to begin hearing from people and the radio about  terrorists hijacking planes to crash into the World Trade Center and Pentagon.  Classes were cancelled since campuses and many public places were closed.  People were calling it Pearl Harbor II, and the attacks were the talk of the next few days.  Just hearing about it upsetted me enough, so I didn’t want to see it on TV since a picture is worth 1,000 words.

A friend called to say that he had a relative working near the Twin Towers, so he had been worried.  Now on its 5th Annviersary, I still regret not going over to comfort him.  He has been at war in Iraq for the last few years, and fortunately still e-mails me.

It is unfair that Osama Bin Laden and his terrorists are still out there, not getting what they deserve.  I wish they and Saddam Hussein had been the victims in the planes and buildings.

Some hackers decided to celebrate the 3rd anniversary of 9/11 by deleting entries from people’s diaries, creating 9/11 on the interent.  I lost some entries from that attack, and almost decided to give up.  However, I gradually changed my mind and restored and rewrote those entries.

It is obvious that the terrorist attacks on Tuesday, September 11, 2001 has beomce a historical event.  Now they even have a movie on it called World Trade Center.  The previews were enough to draw me near to tears, so I didn’t want to see it.  However, I realized that if I don’t see it, I’ll be perceived as a selfish and evil person who has too much time and doesn’t care about others.  That would not be good becuase I’m afraid people are seeing me as self-centered for going on with my life right after the attack.  I had also been afraid that people would think I had something to do with it due to my selfishness.

Even worse, personal problems bother me more than 9/11 or other disasters, which also proves how self-centered I am.  For example, I was more affected by school and MB problems instead of Hurricane Katrina and the many other hurricanes last year.  That means I’m only caring about myself and not others, because huge public problems are supposed to bother people more than small problems.  I caught a cold two days after the attack, September 13, 2001, which was probably a punishment for my ego and not going to my friend when he called.

Now, on the 5th anniversary of the terrorist attacks, I’ve had a cold for a few days probably as a punishment for my selfishness, arrogance, and irresponsibility.  I have never really done anything special to help the victims on September 11, and I still didn’t this year because of school.