Some recent work

Vacant Metropolis
10/28/11

Gone. Far away ‘neath a different light.
City lights are burned out and the metropolis is dark.
I walk the black, empty streets looking for signs of life.
"Hello?" Nothing. No reply. Empty echoes.
I search for a trail you may have left-
Breadcrumbs, an Ariadne string, rock trail-markers-
But there’s no signs, no trace, no tracks.
You’ve disappeared; I stand alone.
I scream your name. It echoes off the concrete teeth
Of this city that swallows us all in the end.
Stumbling through the wasteland, alone again
With fading memories giving dwindling comfort.
I can’t find you anymore; you’ve moved past this lifeless world.
You’re somewhere beyond my reach, though I’m stretching so hard.
Defeated by this shortness, short arms,
But this life seems longer than it should be.
Wait for me at the end of this darkness.
I’ll find my way eventually if I have to crawl the whole way.

Nightmare All-Too-Real
10/28/11

Sometimes the faces bleed
Lying eyes melt away
Sometimes it’s only a dream
Sometimes I’m wide awake

Skeletons dissolving leaving dust
The heart speeds then bursts
The joints become immobile with rust
These forms seem so cursed

We’re all mortal after all
I never would have guessed
The curse was a life so small
And the dead are the truly blessed

I’m sorry…. I bring no words of warmth nor comfort… I’m utterly emotionless as of late. And in reponse to your note… Yes, really. You know I don’t lie lol. *sighs* I miss you Rayne.

Good one Rayne! 🙂

Questionablegirl

October 29, 2011

Love Nightmare All-Too-Real, has a great flow to it! 🙂 Vacant Metropolis paints a sad but vivid image.

Recently I watched again “before sunrise” and “Vacan metropolis” reminds me of the poem that one guy in the streets of Vienna writes for Jesse and Celine. It’s funny, because they’re different, but the melancholy and the sadness are both so real in both poems (yours and the the poem from the movie). You know what else? It reminds me of something that happened in another life.

American Dad really amuses me. I never laughed so much as I do with this show. I love Klaus and I’d cherish and beat Roger at the same time, lol. I am ok. How have you been, my friend?

RYN- Your note surprised me in some ways and lifted my spirits too. Among the things to surprise me were you saying that I get you… Even though it shouldn’t because you get me quite well yourself. Thank you for the note and the tiny measure of comfort it brought. It’s been more than what anyone else has had to say has been able to do. I want you to know you are often thought of. I often let my mind wander back to the older days and wish I hadn’t been so hasty in deleting our correspondence. C’est la vie. The door is always open for you to vent to me, even if a reply isn’t desired. But I know you hold back and while I wish that wasn’t so, I understand. I hope things get better soon. *holds you close* <3

R: omg rayne, no wonder you’ve been ignoring me!!! LOL

You don’t have to do it alone, you know? Remember of all those who care for you (being me one of those persons, in the case that you forget). It doesn’t make the burden disappear, but it gets lighter! *Hugs & Blessings*

God bless you, Rayne. And for me it’s more than an expression. I really mean it! Sometimes I like to think that you’re the brother I never had.

RYN- No one gets me all the time… hell it’s hard to find someone who gets me enough of the time to get close. It makes finding someone difficult. :-/ That’s part of the reason losing you was hard. I hope your mood improves soon and we can start emailing on a more regular basis soon.

RYN- I hope so. I’m glad you’re back on your meds. I think they probably help more than you realize. *hugs you* I hope you continue to feel better!

RYN- Don’t be silly! Being there for you isn’t anything special… Can’t be when I’m a spectacularly unspecial person myself! Anyhow, I’m glad it means a lot to you… And I’m really glad to have had notes a few days in a row from you. Hopefully that continues. Til next time…

RYN- No, I don’t try to communicate with them…. As it is I suspect I eventually won’t have a choice in that either. But all in due time. You better keep noting me! I’ll come kick your ass! Oh wait… You’d probably enjoy that. 😛 Glad you’ve semi joined the land of the living again. 🙂

Ryn: Maybe I will Kerouac my way eventually. Once I’m not scared shitless. I like how we made that into a verb, too.

RYN- What’s on your mind about it?

Hey ho! what were you doing, hidden in there? Are you a teletubbie? :0)

RYN- Recently I saw someone that looked scarily like my friend Kerry… I saw him one time before, not long after the accident. I know this time it wasn’t him… It didn’t feel like him. It was still weird though. At least the pain didn’t come with it… I’m glad of it and I know he would be too.

A cool summer’s breeze on the hottest day to brighten your day: I love you.

Bethany Alice

November 5, 2011

Hello. 🙂 Sofia sent me to read your poetry. She was right- you are absolutely fantastic! So incredibly talented. Well done. 🙂

Journeyman

November 8, 2011

That second one hits me between the eyes!

elenielly

November 30, 2011

The first one I feel that all too well… Just what I needed tonight. Thank you