Gibber Jabs
Well looks like I need to update. I haven’t written a blog here since Monday. Ive stuck to everything as normal. Although this week has been tough. Ive been going through somethings with my husband’s oldest daughter who is ten and its wearing on me emotionally. And I am doing everything I can to not run to food. So far so good. I even managed to avoid those high calorie and fat cupcakes that one of the ladies brought to work yesterday. There are still some sitting in the kitchen. Chocolate ones too. But I cant do it. I know the feeling Id get after eating one of those bad boys and I just cant put myself through it. So instead I got myself a diet Pepsi this morning. I don’t have soda often but when I do at least its diet right?
Sometimes I wish this whole life style change was a little easier. We work so hard. So hard to lose it then bust our tails to maintain it, which as we know is the hardest. Im scared to gain weight. Im scared to gain it all back. I dont want to be part of that statistics that say most people who lose 75+ lbs or more (or whatever it was) will eventually gain it back. I always said that would NEVER EVER be me. I worked to hard to get to this point. I never want to be 205 lbs ever again. I already had to get over the fact that I put on 20 of the 85 lbs I lost. Sometimes it feels like Im starting over, and maybe I am but at least its 20 lbs and not 50, 60 or all of it. At least I saw what was going on and nipped it in the behind before I really lost control. I like eating healthy and I’m learning to experiment and try new recipes. Even though I have to drag myself to the gym, I know that its a rewarding feeling after wards. I feel great and feel like I just accomplished something wonderful.
Im so blessed to have a husband who is with me through this whole thing. He wants to be healthier, eat healthier, lose some weight too. Hes just about where he needs to be and Im so proud of him for sticking this out with me. Im glad I have him to help keep me on track and I know he appreciates all of my hard work at helping him through this and showing him what a real portion looks like.
I like looking at my pictures from when I was 205 lbs.
Im the one in the gray (obviously lol). I remember what I felt like being that heavy. At 5’2.5 that weight was totally unacceptable. How did I let myself get like that?
Ive come a long way. Still working hard at keeping the weight off and losing what I gained back.
Food for me is a struggle everyday. If I don’t stop and force myself to push my plate away I will slip back into my old ways and eat when I’m full. I still have a tendency to do that. That right there, and I know with a lot of others here in spark land, is a struggle I will probably have for the rest of my life. I didnt get fat by not eating. I got fat because I ate and ate and ate and ate some more.
I think by writing this blog just gave me more motivation to try even harder. I think I just inspired myself to push myself as hard as I can. I wanna feel sexy in my own skin again. I miss that feeling.
As GOD as my witness I WILL GET THERE!!!!
i remember that pic from a long time ago.
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i remember that pic from a long time ago.
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i remember that pic from a long time ago.
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i remember that pic from a long time ago.
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i remember that pic from a long time ago.
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i remember that pic from a long time ago.
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i remember that pic from a long time ago.
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You’ve done a great job! Keep it up! (: I find I have to tell myself throughout the day that “this is what you’re going to eat”. So as not to suddenly think I will be eating more or looking forward to just eating junk to feel better. Sometimes easier said than done! (:
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You’ve done a great job! Keep it up! (: I find I have to tell myself throughout the day that “this is what you’re going to eat”. So as not to suddenly think I will be eating more or looking forward to just eating junk to feel better. Sometimes easier said than done! (:
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You’ve done a great job! Keep it up! (: I find I have to tell myself throughout the day that “this is what you’re going to eat”. So as not to suddenly think I will be eating more or looking forward to just eating junk to feel better. Sometimes easier said than done! (:
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You’ve done a great job! Keep it up! (: I find I have to tell myself throughout the day that “this is what you’re going to eat”. So as not to suddenly think I will be eating more or looking forward to just eating junk to feel better. Sometimes easier said than done! (:
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You’ve done a great job! Keep it up! (: I find I have to tell myself throughout the day that “this is what you’re going to eat”. So as not to suddenly think I will be eating more or looking forward to just eating junk to feel better. Sometimes easier said than done! (:
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Everyone who has lost weight has added some back on.. I lost.180 lbs and gained 35 back. It happens, just be proud of what you’ve lost and.move on from there. Keep focused you’ve done great and will continue.. diet pop is ok is fine been drinking it the whole time I was losing weight. So drink up.. diet cherry Pepsi is da bomb!
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Everyone who has lost weight has added some back on.. I lost.180 lbs and gained 35 back. It happens, just be proud of what you’ve lost and.move on from there. Keep focused you’ve done great and will continue.. diet pop is ok is fine been drinking it the whole time I was losing weight. So drink up.. diet cherry Pepsi is da bomb!
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Everyone who has lost weight has added some back on.. I lost.180 lbs and gained 35 back. It happens, just be proud of what you’ve lost and.move on from there. Keep focused you’ve done great and will continue.. diet pop is ok is fine been drinking it the whole time I was losing weight. So drink up.. diet cherry Pepsi is da bomb!
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Everyone who has lost weight has added some back on.. I lost.180 lbs and gained 35 back. It happens, just be proud of what you’ve lost and.move on from there. Keep focused you’ve done great and will continue.. diet pop is ok is fine been drinking it the whole time I was losing weight. So drink up.. diet cherry Pepsi is da bomb!
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Everyone who has lost weight has added some back on.. I lost.180 lbs and gained 35 back. It happens, just be proud of what you’ve lost and.move on from there. Keep focused you’ve done great and will continue.. diet pop is ok is fine been drinking it the whole time I was losing weight. So drink up.. diet cherry Pepsi is da bomb!
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Everyone who has lost weight has added some back on.. I lost.180 lbs and gained 35 back. It happens, just be proud of what you’ve lost and.move on from there. Keep focused you’ve done great and will continue.. diet pop is ok is fine been drinking it the whole time I was losing weight. So drink up.. diet cherry Pepsi is da bomb!
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Everyone who has lost weight has added some back on.. I lost.180 lbs and gained 35 back. It happens, just be proud of what you’ve lost and.move on from there. Keep focused you’ve done great and will continue.. diet pop is ok is fine been drinking it the whole time I was losing weight. So drink up.. diet cherry Pepsi is da bomb!
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here’s my email if you want to email me.. ilovejesus.2583@comcast.net
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here’s my email if you want to email me.. ilovejesus.2583@comcast.net
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here’s my email if you want to email me.. ilovejesus.2583@comcast.net
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here’s my email if you want to email me.. ilovejesus.2583@comcast.net
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here’s my email if you want to email me.. ilovejesus.2583@comcast.net
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here’s my email if you want to email me.. ilovejesus.2583@comcast.net
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here’s my email if you want to email me.. ilovejesus.2583@comcast.net
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here’s my email if you want to email me.. ilovejesus.2583@comcast.net
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I don’t think that you would ever let yourself get to 200 pounds again. You work too hard and catch yourself when you slip up. Even if gaining 20 pounds is rough maybe your body is just bouncing up and down a little until it finds it’s happy medium? I’m nervous too but I’m pretty convinced we worked too damn hard these past few years to ever REALLY slip up. 🙂
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I don’t think that you would ever let yourself get to 200 pounds again. You work too hard and catch yourself when you slip up. Even if gaining 20 pounds is rough maybe your body is just bouncing up and down a little until it finds it’s happy medium? I’m nervous too but I’m pretty convinced we worked too damn hard these past few years to ever REALLY slip up. 🙂
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I don’t think that you would ever let yourself get to 200 pounds again. You work too hard and catch yourself when you slip up. Even if gaining 20 pounds is rough maybe your body is just bouncing up and down a little until it finds it’s happy medium? I’m nervous too but I’m pretty convinced we worked too damn hard these past few years to ever REALLY slip up. 🙂
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I don’t think that you would ever let yourself get to 200 pounds again. You work too hard and catch yourself when you slip up. Even if gaining 20 pounds is rough maybe your body is just bouncing up and down a little until it finds it’s happy medium? I’m nervous too but I’m pretty convinced we worked too damn hard these past few years to ever REALLY slip up. 🙂
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I don’t think that you would ever let yourself get to 200 pounds again. You work too hard and catch yourself when you slip up. Even if gaining 20 pounds is rough maybe your body is just bouncing up and down a little until it finds it’s happy medium? I’m nervous too but I’m pretty convinced we worked too damn hard these past few years to ever REALLY slip up. 🙂
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I don’t think that you would ever let yourself get to 200 pounds again. You work too hard and catch yourself when you slip up. Even if gaining 20 pounds is rough maybe your body is just bouncing up and down a little until it finds it’s happy medium? I’m nervous too but I’m pretty convinced we worked too damn hard these past few years to ever REALLY slip up. 🙂
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I have that fear too. We just have to keep sticking with it every day! You won’t be back in that place ever again.
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I have that fear too. We just have to keep sticking with it every day! You won’t be back in that place ever again.
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I have that fear too. We just have to keep sticking with it every day! You won’t be back in that place ever again.
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I have that fear too. We just have to keep sticking with it every day! You won’t be back in that place ever again.
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I have that fear too. We just have to keep sticking with it every day! You won’t be back in that place ever again.
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I have that fear too. We just have to keep sticking with it every day! You won’t be back in that place ever again.
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I have that fear too. We just have to keep sticking with it every day! You won’t be back in that place ever again.
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I have that fear too. We just have to keep sticking with it every day! You won’t be back in that place ever again.
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