Half sick of shadows

Long story tonight. One of my closest friends tried to kill herself.

We and others had all been out. And I knew with a lot of stuff going on in her life she was bothered by. And that tonight was particularly bad, there was someone she wanted to avoid. And the night went on, and she spent much of it in the toilet or outside with me avoiding everyone. After a while, I thought she really seemed like she wasn’t enjoying it. So I asked if she wanted a taxi home, she said yes, so I called one.

At least forty minutes after she’d gone, I checked my phone, and found I’d got a text from her nearly half an hour before.

It read "Im sorry but i cant do this any more. You’ve all been good friends and mean a lot to me, but im not strong enough for this. My family will know how much you meant to me, i love you all <NAME> xXx"

Naturally, this made me panic. I went and asked Clair if she’d had anything  from her, and she said no. I showed her the mesage and decided I needed to get into a taxi to hers straight away. Which I did.

Banging on the door did nothing. As did calling her. So I called 999 and the police eventually turned up. They managed to get into the house by breaking the back door down, and there was no sign of her. We found her in the bathroom, which was locked. They had to break that down too. She’d drank bleach.

An ambulance turned up and got her to the hospital, although apparently she didn’t want anyone to see her.

Once, eventually, a long time after the police had turned up, and even after the ambulance got there, she had got into the hospital, I followed by taxi. She still didn’t want to see anyone apparently. I called her parents.

Luckily, she seems to be okay. I eventually got to see her, and her dad turned up. Her story, which she’s sticking to, is that she came home very drunk, slipped over in the bathroom, knocked her head and spilt the bleach. I don’t know what her father thinks. Later tonight I got a text from her that said this:

"Thank u. u saved my life. dont tell anyone else though xXx"

The police kept saying how good it was I called them. I don’t fucking feel like a big damn hero. They don’t feel like shit.

At least I didn’t do nothing again.