you can’t always get what you want..

so, to update since the last time i wrote, i had my date with jeff on friday night and it was so fun! i really like him a lot, but i’m not getting my hopes up like all of the other times… the things i like about him: polite (held open the doors for me, even the car door!!!), hilarious, smart!, real and honest. the only thing that kind of bothered me is that he just blows with the wind and doesn’t really make plans, so when i asked him when he’d come back to guelph he was very non-committal. but whatever. also, when he dropped me off, he didn’t walk me to my door.. and we didn’t kiss. i kind of regret that, but on the other hand atleast i have something to look forward to 🙂

in other news, yesterday i started my new medication and last night i had the worst sleep of my life. i can’t link it to the medication for sure, i mean maybe i just had a lot on my mind, but it did say that one of the side effects was sleeplessness.. so maybe i’ll have to start taking my pills in the morning. anyways, i got into my bed at 9ish… i tossed and turned all the way to 5:30.. sleeping maybe an hour here and there but not really any prolonged period of time. i got so bored and fed up that i just started listening to music and now there are cds scattered all over my room. oh well. so at 5:30 i got up to use the bathroom and while i was down there i ended up cleaning the toilet and mirror. then i sat in the living room and went through my old sketchbooks. then i went back to bed and thank god, i fell asleep until about 9:30. my plan was to get a great sleep and then wake up at 7am and get a ton done today, but nothing ever really goes according to plan i guess. i am going to the movies with the girls after they get off work today so i have about 6 hours to get things done, but i am somewhat ocd and cannot cannot canNOT do any work until i am in a balanced, clean and organized environment, which means i’m gonna have to pick up my room, finish cleaning the bathroom and do some laundry before i even think about reading/painting/drawing.

also today i must call my grandma. my grandpa is in the hospital. he had a heart attack and i didn’t really find out about it until friday so i’m a little bit pissed. anyways, i am long overdue for a call to my grammy so i’m gonna chat with her for a bit.

horrible confession: i think that if zac moves in, i’d like to keep this house. after all the ranting and raving i’ve done, i feel the benefits far outweigh the drawbacks.

and, ry is being a huge db.. he’s just so insensitive. this morning i asked if i could drive mike, who was having a bit of a stress attack, to school for rehersal and he was really bitchy about it. i paid him $10. TEN DOLLARS!!! just do drive to school and back. meanwhile, i picked him up from downtown one night at 2 in the morning… i offer to do things like that because i’m nice, god damnit 😛

so enough ranting.. time to do things.

peace,

kirsten