rip nk

so today an olympic athelete died in trials and i don’t know why, but i cried. it’s just so sad… and one of those eerie tragedies.. the news story i read had a pic of him on the track, moments before he died. it just seems like such a personal moment — if i were his fam. i’d want that picture and i’d want it all to myself. and the fact that his accident was captured on film, posted on the internet and on the news for a short while… it’s just so weird. death in real-time. nowadays we’re so desensitized to death and violence but images like this (ie real) are such a reality check, for me at least.

so last night stef, laurie, kristi, baker and zac came to g. to party one last time before stef goes back to australia. it’s too bad more ppl didn’t come out considering it was her last hurrah, but the group that was there was fun and we had a blasty. except zac, he was tired and had a headache… cranky. but he came none-the-less so he deserves cred. for that. stef kept drunkenly telling him what a good true friend he was hahah. oh also, we played kings in the hotel room before we went out – so fun hahaha! brought back memories of rez. in first year.

today i had to work at the mall, and then i had to teach a kids’ class this evening, which went well. it was a nice relaxing change from the kids classes i usually do which are loud and chaotic. we made stickers and buttons.. it was cute. tomorrow i have 6 straight hours of telemarketing god noooooooooooooooooooo. that is, if i make sales within the first hour. if not, i’ll just be sent home so i guess that’s something to look forward to? i dunno — its push and pull – i need the money but doing telemarketing is just pure agony.  anywho, after that i work at the mall… and then i work at the mall the next day.. and after that susan, lauren and i are gonna see that v-day movie which is exciting 🙂 things are good between me and susan, and me and corrine.. but susan and corrines hatred for each other is palpable and i’m starting to feel a little bit anxious about susan/lauren’s b-day party/pre-drink at my apt. since the only reason susan agreed to it is b/c she heard corrine couldn’t come. but what if corrine changes her mind and wants to come? she shouldn’t be blacklisted just b/c susan has a problem with her, ya know? susan has a way of making ppl turn against each other.. whereas corrine keeps her business to herself and doesn’t spread shit around. so i think it’s horrible that corrine has to tip-toe around when, to be honest, she didn’t really do anything wrong. big sigh. it just gets to me… i hate to see a friend being bullied like that, esp. at work where they HAVE to be, and thus have to put up with it. if she could quit, she’d do it in a heartbeat but since she needs the money, she has to stay. and on the other hand, it’s hard to see susan be so ruthless and conniving because i do like her as a friend and value her opinions etc… but not when she’s like this. and i wonder, would she do this to me if i got on her bad side? does she say stuff behind my back? it makes me kinda weary about what i say around her, which isn’t really a friendship. gah.

i guess i should get to bed, it’s only 11:30 but i have to be up earlllllyyyy tomorrow. i haven’t seen that side of the am’s in a loonggg time. fudge. night.

peaaaaaceeeee.

k.