burning the proverbial candle …

… at both ends.

so it’s 1:30. i had the very best of intentions for tomorrow… i was gonna get up early and go to work from 9-12..come home to eat and nap, and then back to work from 4-10. i even turned down an impromptu bar trip with kristi because i thought.. "i’m gonna get to bed early so that i don’t flake on work tomorrow morning" and now i can totally see myself shutting off the alarm in my sleep.. like i sometimes do. ugh.. it’s the worst because if i was on the schedule and obligated to go to work, then of course i’d be there! but since it’s just a walk-in and it’s totally up to me, i get so lazy and procrastinate until it’s the end of the week and i’ve barely got any hours under my belt 🙁 we have to do 12 hours per week… and after that you can come in as much as you want, whenever you want. i’d love to go in the afternoon or evening, but when i work at the mall i can’t do that. god — totes my fault i know. i just feel like i’m better at night. i function with a clear head, i am sosososo efficient etc.. but it’s the nagging in the back of my head telling me to go to bed to prepare for another early morning that fills me with guilt. during the day, i have no motivation, but as soon as the sun goes down, i feel like i could write a book, paint a masterpiece and clean my house, no problemo. oh well… no use complaining.. i probs should try to mould myself into a regular person who is not a robot during daytime hours….  first thing tomorrow 😉

peeeeaceee