Fix You

Having fought myself for so long

I recognize the signs

My heart begins to beat fast

My memory to decline

I offer up a hopeful

Plea for one or two

Days of relief but

I know just what I’ll do

I’ll enter in my bloodstream

A knife so nice and sharp

I’ll bleed onto my bedsheets

Blood so nice and dark.

I’ll bloom a ruby blossom

Across my pillowcase

And with a subtle "fuck you"

I’ll finally leave this place.

 

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Desperate to end it

The blame bestow

Undertows of hatred

A melody so low

Hear the dark wind calling

Bow to all her might

Praise of all to beauty

Drink it in delight

Stretch a hand to hunger

Bring back your destiny

Brave the stormy weather

Bring me back to me.

 

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Softness of hardly

Any known thought

Darkness of all the

Bitterness wrought

Cloudless sky taunts me

Memory betrays

Indefinable melody

Within the delay.

 

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Seeking perfection

Figure out how

Maybe I’m eating

Should I stop now?

Needing perfection

Seeking control

Desperate reflection

Ugly and cold.

 

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Purge out the darkness

Absorb the light

Figure of absence

Hinder the fight

Sufferage indefinite

Longing to know

Yonder expecting

Fucked to show.

 

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Spiraling out

Losing control

Better ask how

Nobody knows

Gentle persuasion

Silvery flash

Desperate contagion

Bitter clash

 

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Hide my face

Mask of steel

Angels and demons

All so real

Fight against them

Head to heart

Darkest hours

Spent apart.