Without Shane

Work was so boring this weekend without Shane. He has reserves for 2 weeks and he won’t be back to work unti June 5th, and he’s working 3-11 that day so it’s not like I’ll be able to see him anyways. Since he left for reserves before I could execute plan a, I have to formulate plan b. Not exactly sure yet what it’s going to be. But somehow someway I have to get him to not get married. Once he walks down that aisle life as I know it will be over.

CJ and I worked together all weekend since Mikey and Brunk are both on vacation. I didn’t think that I was going to enjoy working with her since she is new and I hate working with new people especially on midnight shift, but she is cool and we get along great. No problems at all. We talked alot. We even talked about riding to Ozzfest together since her boyfriend has a big car, and that way I don’t have to worry about whether or not my car is fixed.

I think CJ has a crush on Steve. Saturday night she was outside smoking a cigarette and Dom was showing off flashing the lights on the police car. Me, Pip and Alan were inside and I said that Dom was just showing off cause there is a new girl for him to try and bang. Pip said no she likes Steve. I was like not a chance, but the more we talked about it the more I thought it could be a possibility cause 1. she calls him Stevie, 2. she always asks someone if he is working, and 3. whenever she talks about him she gets all giddy and happy like I do when I talk about Shane. I asked her about it and she said no way, he was too old. She’s right and he’s married and has 2 kids, but that never stops me so…

anyways she did say that she thought he was kinda cute for an older man.

I told her that I kinda had the hots for someone whom noone would ever guess. Yes I told her that I had a small crush on Jimmy. I told her that ever since the day that me and him went for a ride in he Mach 1 that I’ve been having dreams about him and that in my dreams we’ve had feelings for each other. I also told her that I find myself thinking about him sometimes. But like I said before there is no way that anything would ever happen between us.

I think the whole situation is kinda messed up. He is like my big brother and he looks out for me, the same way that Eddie does. That’s why he is friends with Eddie. They are both like that. Eddie is the only one from Carnegie that I trust with my life, just the way that Jimmy is the only one the I trust from Scott. I know that they both look out for me. When Jimmy and I went for a ride, he asked me if everythign was going okay with the roommate situation. I told him it was going fine, even thought it’s not really. I just don’t want him to worry about me. I really need to talk to Eddie about it though. I know that Eddie is the only one that Rich respects and I know that if Eddie says something Rich and Gloria will be out sooner. It is really starting to annoy me because I never have any privacy and with so many people here it is never quite. I feel like I am going to snap. I love Rich adn Gloria, but I feel like it is getting too much to handle anymore.

To Be Continued…