What’s Next?

After much thought and talks with Uncle Tony, I have decided that it is definitely over with me and PD.  There is no working things out or trying to get back together.  It’s over and done.  I was trying to hang onto what we had but honestly I know that it would never work out.  I think after we broke up it was hard for us to move on because we were still involved so much in running the guild.  But since most of the raid team has quit playing and he left to go to The Gents, there really isn’t much interaction between us needed.  I also think our group vacation played a small part in us holding on to the possibility that it would work out.  Yes we had a splendid time.  And yes I let him sleep in my bed with me and kiss and cuddle with me.  But I promised myself before that trip that there would be no sex and I kept to it.  It was actually quite easy as I just did not feel it.  Before the trip the thought of seeing him made me kind of hopeful that we could work it out.  But when I was with him it just didn’t feel the same.  The spark was gone.  And since there is pretty much no more guild, that means no more guild vacations and no need for me to ever see him again.  It didn’t end badly.  There are no hard feelings between us.  We can still talk to each other in guild when needed.  It’s actually a kind of relief. 

So now my only question is what is next?  I mean I had all these plans to move to be with him.  I have been saving money like crazy for the past 6 months.  So now what do I do?  I know that I don’t want to stay here.  I can’t stand living in this area.  I’m just not sure where I want to go and what I want to do.  Thoughts of moving back to Pittsburgh have been creeping into my head, but ultimately I know that is not where I really want to be.  Where do I go from here?  And how do I get there?

*edit* after posting I  realized that maybe it would help if I listed the things I want to help me make a decision on where I want to live.

1.  Decent job market
2.  Cost of living not outrageous like the DC market
3.  Must have an NHL team within 2 hours.