Relationship Progressed

I think my relationship with John has finally progressed into something more than just “good” friends. He is coming over in a little bit and I am off tonight, YEAH! I think that tonight may be the night that we actually have sex. We were talking about it last night on the phone. I really want to, but I want to make sure that my reasons are right. I think they are. I really like him alot, okay maybe that’s a lie, I love him. I’m 90% sure that he feels the same way about me. It’s just that we are both so busy and have alot of problems going on right now that we need to deal with. But I am not going to do anything with him if I feel that I am not ready.

I’m not even sure what attracts me to him. He is the nicest guy I have met in a long time. I kinda don’t know what to expect next from him. He treats me nicer than any guy I’ve had in a long time. He is sweet and full of surprises. It’s kinda like he can read my mind. He brought me flowers last week, which I was so not expecting. Then the other day he showed up and surprised me while I was sleeping. It was kinda nice. I woke up to him climbing in bed with me. He’s lucky that I realized it was him or I might have punched the crap out of him. It was just nice to have him there sleeping with me. I felt alot better, because I had been having a bad week. In fact I actually sleep better when he is there with me, which is weird, because I have always hated sleeping in the same bed with anyone.

I just hope that his intentions are good and that we have a relationship for awhile. We’ve already been seeing each other for almost 2 months, which is the longest relationship that I have had in awhile. And I am actually proud of myself that I have went this far building a relationship before having sex with him. Maybe this is the start of a new journey in my life.