I wish I had balls

Okay don’t take the title literally. I just wish that i had some guts. I am getting better at being more self confident, but I’m still not all the way there.

Here’s my dilemma. Denny told me that he is going with Shane to Callahan’s tonight and that I should just happen to show up. Now I’m not totally against the idea. I’m just against the idea of going alone. I can’t seem to find anyone who can go with me. I will not go there by myself I don’t care if Mario Lemieux is gonna be there I will not go alone. I asked Mikey, Brandon, RJ, Dean, just about everyone I could think of. Jess has to work so she can’t go. I haven’t been able to get a hold of Ashley. My last hope is Ryan and I’m not sure I’ll be able to get ahold of him. Maybe I’ll call Mikey and try to convince him to call off work tonight so he can go.

I just wish I had to courage to go by myself. But I have not made it to that point yet. Slowly I am working my way up from being a shy sit at home on a Friday night person, to someone who is outgoing and can actually go out and have fun. Maybe if I work on it long enough?????