Dreams

Maybe a little more like nightmares really. I keep dreaming about Jess and Zoe. It’s a different dream every night, but it all boils down to the same story. Last night I dreamed that I was sitting in Jess’s house and I was playing with Zoe. She started crying and I was holding her, until she fell asleep. Then Jess came and took her away and she started crying for me. Jess locked her away and I couldn’t get to her. I woke up crying and shaking. It’s starting to really get to me, not being able to see them and all. I know I should just call Jess and talk to her and maybe we can work everything all out and we can be friends again. I mean we’ve done that before. Not spoken in months and then started talking and being friends again. I can’t bear not seeing Jess and Zoe. It kills me not to see them. I don’t understand why Jess quit talking to me. It’s not like I did anything to her this time. I swear that I can’t remember saying anything or doing anything to make her upset with me and not want to be my friend anymore. I’ve asked Ed if he knows of anything I’ve done to make Jess hate me, but he keeps avoiding the conversation. I really want to see Zoe and hang out with Jess, but what can I do? I don’t know how to even begin to build my friendship back up with Jess.