12/11/2007

I talked to my dad today and found out that my brother Davey is moving to my area. I am so excited about this. I haven’t seen him since last March and we used to be very close when we were younger, but since we have been living in different parts of the country we haven’t really spent much time together or talked that much. He is 3 years younger than me but we are the closest in age out of all my siblings. I haven’t been able to get a hold of him yet to find out all the details so hopefully I will be able to talk to him soon. My dad said that he got a new job on the naval base down here and is planning on moving right after the first of the year. I am wondering where he will be staying and maybe hopefully we could find a place together. I would much rather live with him than where I am at now. Don’t get me wrong I love my roommates to death and we are friends, but there is always a bunch of people over here and also a lot of drama that goes on. I would feel much safer living with my brother. I’m not sure how he feels about the situation, but he would probably go for it. I’m not sure if he is planning on staying with Cooke, his old college roommate who helped him get the job, or if he plans on finding his own place. Hopefully I can talk to him tonight or tomorrow.
 
Last night I had a dream about Brian. I haven’t thought of him lately. But I heard the song Landing in London by Three Doors Down and it made me think about him. That was our song when he was in Iraq and we weren’t together. I’ve been thinking about him a lot today. Just wondering if we could have worked things out and ended up together and how much different life would have been if we actually tried. But really we made the right choice. As much as I miss him I know that I’m not in love with him and it wouldn’t be fair for me to be with him if I’m not. I know that he would still do anything for me and I thought about calling him, but I won’t. He needs to move on and he can’t do it if I remain in the picture. I can’t give him that ray of hope that we can still be together when we can’t. I want him to find happiness with someone else. He deserves it. 
 
Not too much else going on. I applied for an Inventory Manager position at Petsmart and I have been working on finessing my resume today. I have a couple of places to send it out to tomorrow. Michael and I had our same argument about me needed to find a good job. He really pisses me off because he acts like I’m not trying when I am. I don’t need him constantly on my case about it. It’s irritating. I understand he wants me to find something better than Bathfitters, hell I want something better, but the job market is not very good at the moment so it is taking me some time. And he also forgets that he as out of a job for over 2 months when he got fired from CVS. So he just needs to shut his mouth before I shut it for him. Ugh…men!!
 
Tomorrow I am going over to spend some time with Randi and Jaden. I haven’t seen my baby boy in about a month and Randi was showing me pics on Saturday and I realized how much I miss him. He is getting so big. It’s amazing how fast babies grow. So I figure I will get off work and go spend time with them until Lisa gets off work and then go and spend some time with Lisa since I will be in the area. Maybe I will even go see General since I’ll be over that way and he says we don’t hang out enough. But the stupid effer never texted me back the other day when I was trying to see how Silky was doing so I dunno if I wanna go see his lazy ass. We will see tomorrow.
 
Wednesday I have plans to meet up with Chris, an old friend from high school, whom I haven’t seen since graduation 8 years ago. We found each other on myspace and have been chatting back and forth for about 2 weeks now. It will be nice to see him again. I have no clue what we are going to go do, but he is meeting me at my work when he is done working. Probably we will go get some lunch or something and catch up with each other. It’s nice meeting up with old friends. I have been trying to get back in touch with people here lately. I found out that both Cereal and Alan got married over the summer. I was very surprised. Alan got married to this girl Krista that we have all known since high school. Kinda disappointed me, because I have never liked the girl at all and I really don’t think that they are good for each other, but whatever it’s their choice. I hope they are happy. Krista is also pregnant and it is going to be a boy. Alan seems really happy. It’s just hard to imagine him being a daddy. But I guess we are all getting older and it’s about that time for everyone to settle down, get married, and start having babies. Cereal married some girl Lisa that I have never met, but he says that they are doing well. After all the drama with Jess I am really glad that he found a nice girl who isn’t crazy. 
 
I also found Steve on myspace and sent him a message. He hasn’t replied back, but he hasn’t been on myspace since I sent him the message. I have missed him so much and have lost contact with him again. That is the story of our lives. We lose contact for awhile, find each other and catch up and talk for a few months, then lose contact again. I am hoping that this time we manage to keep in touch. We were really good friends and he did so much for me. Our friendship has always meant a lot to me and I am hoping that we can have that closeness again.
 
That’s pretty much all that is going on. Life is pretty boring as usual. I used to lead such an exciting life. What ever happened?