10/23/2007
The past few days have been very busy for me. Sunday I was feeling very tired and hung over. After getting home from the show I didn’t go to bed until about 6:30am. I wanted to sleep most of the day. But James called me at 10:45 and asked me to bring him a phone up to work because he needed it for spare parts to fix a customers phone. So I got my hung over ass up and went to the mall. I talked to him for a few moments. Then I made my way down the mall talking to everyone that I know before I finally made it to Borders to see Silky. I probably spent about an hour talking to him. We talked about the show and he thanked me again for coming out. We talked about a lot of things. Most of which I can’t remember because I was so tired and hung over. Then I came home and unpacked a little bit of my stuff but mostly I hung out with Mary and James. Josh and Jordan came over and Mary and I cooked a homemade Polish dinner of pierogies, polish sausage with some sauerkraut. Then after we cleaned up I went upstairs and passed out. I was freaking tired.
On Monday we were all off work so we decided to go to DC and play tourist for the day. Mary, James and I met Josh and Kenny up at the mall around 10am and we took the Metro into DC. We went to the Natural History Museum, the Art Gallery, The Air and Space Museum, the World War II Memorial, and the Vietnam Memorial. It was so much fun and between Mary and I we took 350+ pictures. We all had a blast. I will post pics soon.
When we got back from DC I stopped in to see Silky at work since I had to go to the mall to drop off Josh and Kenny. I talked to him for a few minutes but not long since I had a splitting headache. But before I left he went out to his car and gave me a CD and a T-shirt. He told me since I missed my hockey game to go see him play he wouldn’t make me pay for them. LOL. He better not.
I really want to believe that he likes me. But now I’m not so sure. I’ve been texting his best friend General all weekend. General said that he sees Silky and I getting closer, but he said that Silky said he was happy with where our relationship was at the moment. And I do understand that because he works 2 jobs and goes to school full time and dos student teaching and has a band…so I know that he doesn’t have much time. But damn I like him so much and I want something more. I haven’t liked someone this much in a long time. Especially someone who I would miss a hockey game for. I take that back…I know that he likes me, but he just wants to take it slow for now. I understand that, but I have never been a very patient person. And I almost went back to Michael. I told General and he said, “Don’t do that…you have nothing to gain and everything to lose. You don’t need Silky to move on. You deserve someone who makes you happy. Don’t ever settle.” And he is so right. I shouldn’t go back to Michael just cause I don’t wanna be lonely. I can be patient. I can wait for the right time for me and Silky. At least I hope so.