1/16/08

I know it’s been awhile and this will be a short update. 

I have been in crisis containment mode since right after Christmas and it has been very frustrating to say the least.  My car finally went KAPUT 2 days before New Year’s so no car for me at the moment.  Money has been very tight and I was almost evicted but  my brother and I managed to talk to my landlord and work out an agreement so as long as my  rent is caught up in full by the end of the month then I will be able to stay here.  And it will be caught up.  My brother gave him some money already and I will give him most of the rest on Friday when I get paid and then my brother will give him some more money the following Friday and it will be all caught up and I will actually be 2 weeks ahead.  Thank God for my brother moving down to this area to take a $25 an hour job. 

Speaking of jobs tomorrow I have a job interview at Wawa for a management position.  It is actually my 2nd interview so I hope it goes well and they offer me a job.  It pays in the $12-15 an hour range which will help me out immensely and I also hope to keep my current job part time to help me catch up on my bills, that in addition to my tax refund should be enough to get me a new car and get my life on the right track.  I am planning things out and Michael is going to help me with a budget so I can accomplish the things i need to in order to get back on track finanancially.  Hopefully I get a job offer tomorow 🙂

Other than that there isn’t much else going on.  I haven’t barely seen Silky in the past month and a half and I miss him.  He is only working one day a week and will be quitting Borders soon.  Then who knows how often I will see him or talk to him.  I feel like I have completely fucked up our friendship, but I am working on that.  I realize that we won’t ever have anything more than a friendship and I am satisfied with that.  I don’t want to lose him as a friend.  He has seriously helped me out and given me alot of good advice even though I don’t think that he realizes what he has done for me.

Michael and I are together again and it is wonderful.  Seriously since we broke up in September he has been acting so differently.  He has acutally been making time for me and coming to see me more often.  Even volunteering to do things for me without expecting anything in return.  He has actually been more social with Mary and James too.  We all went to my work holiday party and it was alot of fun.  We went to the Cantina afterwards and he loved it.  Last weekend he actually managed to talk to my roommates instead of running straight to my room to hide.  I’m actually  pleasantly surprised that he has made such an effort to show me how much he really wants to be with me.  I mean I know that he is not the most open and social person but he has really been more honest and open with me lately that I am unsure of how to take it.  The only bad thing is that he has been talking about moving back to Kentucky.  He has tossed the idea up in the air a few times, but we haven’t really discussed it.  I don’t want him to go.  I have some serious feelings for him and I will be very upset if he leaves me.  And I don’t know if he wants me to go with him.  I think that if I had my life straight job and moneywise that he would ask me to go.  I think that is the only thing holding him back.  I should probably talk to him about it but I  have been afraid of what he is going to say.  But I guess I just need to suck it up and do it.  He will be here on Saturday.  We were supposed to go see Silky’s band play, but I guess the show got cancelled or something so I have no clue what we will be doing.  I guess we will be having a talk then.  Anyways…

Time for me to go play some more FFX…I have revisted that game since I got a ps2 and I am once again addicted.  Dammit!!!