Talking to my pain

-Hello pain

-Hello

-I see you, you’re welcome here

-This is painful

-It’s alright- there is nothing wrong with you- u are loved here- this is a safe space

My chest hurts. I see lots of pink

-Hello pink

-Hello

My chest hurts, it feels like there’s a giant hazelnut inside it.

-Hello hazelnut- u’re welcome here

-Hello- I feel relieved for finally being noticed

How do I feel towards the giant nut?

-I feel like it survived a lot and I appreciate it showing up and fighting the battles- it’s hard as a rock and round and it has scars around it from fighting emotional battles on my behalf- it did a lot for me

This feels overwhelming- my body is tired and my defense mechanism is to feel sleepy in order to not deal with this amount of pain. This is why I don’t drink or do drugs- I dont’ have to. People use alcohol to suppress their pain but when my body naturally does it for me- alcohol won’t make much of a difference of how I feel. I’m alcohol

TO BE CONTINUED…..