There aren’t any words…

My aunt told me and my mom today that the doctor gave grammy 4 or 5 days to live. They know that she has cancer but they don’t know where. The doctor said that they could take her to the hospital and run all kinds of tests on her to find out where it is but even if they find it the doctor says that it would only give her about 2 more months. I don’t think it is worth prolonging her suffering. She has already said that she doesn’t want to be revived if anything happens. I guess her organs are going to shut down slowly untill she just passes on. She already had her last sacrament or final rights or whatever you call it. Now all we can do is wait…

It just doesn’t seem real. When I think of my grammy I picture her sitting in her little chair watching TV and smoking her cigarette. I don’t picture her all sad looking laying asleep in her hospital bed. I hope I can keep remembering her that way. The way she always was. I know that the doctors aren’t always right about this stuff but I really can’t see it going any other way. All we can do now is pray for everything to go smoothly. I just don’t want her to feel pain anymore. I’ll really miss her. I just love her so much…